Dreams From Heaven!!!!
(Summing up the stream of consciousness as diary from 1969-1999)
When I wrote Patheyam,1my spiritual autobiography,someone asked,Arent the dreams you describe an illusionary world? That is not the real world.Where should I separate illusion and reality?I always wonder.Johannes Kepler 2dreamt that he has seen the clock of heavens and that he was traveling to the moon.And he really created those as science,not as dream.His dream became science for the next generation.Kekule 3dreamed of two intertwining serpents devouvouring the tail of the other,and he found out the 6 carbon ring of Benzene from that dream.Benzene ring is science and the dream which gave birth to it is not science.What is that logic,I wonder!
Varahamihira 4talks about the illusion of passage of time.And of space.Curt Godell5 said about it:Illusion of passage of time arise from confusing the real and the given.We think of occupying different realities.In fact there is only one reality.And Einstein6 carried the torch ahead.
When I sit down and try to organize my old diaries and copy some excerpts on to my computer,I remember these.A diary is a running commentary ,of your stream of consciousness over a long period of time.Disordered,it may seem,but on second check,a perfectly ordered rhythm is in it.The passage through the corridors of time of a limited individual life!!
My chronological age is 61.But my stream of consciousness goes back to millions and millions of years back.And create a new world from that for thhe new world of love and peace to emerge.My dreams and my streams of consciousness follow a cosmic calendar,I find with wonder from my old diaries.
In a cosmic calender one day is 40 million years!
One second is 500 years.
Every cosmic minute is 30000 years.
Converting that to degree,
10= 60’=180 0000 years
1 month(30 0)=54 00000 years
120 0(4 months)21600000 years
240 0 ,0r 8 months =43200000 years
Therefore 12 months or the circle of 360 0 is 64800000 years ,the energy number of Einstein.And this cosmic calendar was known to the Indian astronomer right from vedic times.Not the written vedic times,but the oral veda,the nomadic cattlerearing and early settling periods ,when mathematics was with just 3 symbols,a small line or stick,a dot(the decimal or the Bhadram) ,and a zero(open cowrie shell).The power notation of dasamsa was invented right back in the beginning of civilization in India,by a unknown ancestor who took a stick ,a bhadram and a cowrie and calculated the very big numbers of the yuga and the kalpa.Surprising.But there are many evidences for this .
The dream when in a single tiny moment ,time,energy and space become one with the dravya of our body giving us unusual insight into a bygone past and a passion to create a future of Oneness to the entire world(Advaitha)is my only reality.And for creating those beautiful dreams ,Indian classical and light music has been my friends/or aides.When I review my life at the age of 60 I find only this reality.All the other experiences were just illusions.And ,then I remember the words of Krishna in the Gita,that a yogi is awake when others are asleep and asleep when others are awake.That is absolutely true.What is real for a Advaithin may be Greek and Latin for others.And what is real for them is just an illusionary world for the Advaithin.
The truth of an astronomer is both the dream and reality of the ancient rishi.The essence of all the living and nonliving things,of all the civilizations and languages,sciences and arts consolidated as the rasa experience of soundaryalahari in a split second in one’s consciousness as if in a mirror ,in a dreamy mirror.They come to us in our deep sleep as visions,because that is the only natural state when we forget our sense experiences and are totally transcendental.We are then beyond the limitations of our socalled limited personality/ego and the limited experiences of this world.The history of mankind as we know it today is only a few last seconds in a cosmic calendar of mahakalpa and yuga.This small day-to-day life which we think as real is not the real.It is something beyond this.
For a soul to evolve fully the environment is selected by an unknown power.We don’t choose our parents .The parents,the home,the spacetime for the event (birth)is beyond our free will.This then determine our education and the possibility of wisdom we aquire.We are given the appropriate experiences,friendships,acquaintances at the correct moment so that we evolve fully.We don’t have free will on that too.
The poetic and logical truth or reality (reality of jagrad and swapna)are the function of the brain.The right and left hemispheres have a perfect job division.My brain has to be a combination of both.I cant deny my right brain’s existence.I cant deny the dream experiences as illusion,because that too is the experience of my own brain.Dreams are like flowers to a plant,natural to human mind.We cant deny them as illusory.They are more real than what we call real.It is a neverending fountain of my cognitive and creative power.The dream analysis of clinical psychiatry after 7Freud was concerned with dreams and imaginations of a diseased brain.The dreams and imageries of a perfectly healthy mind was not studied by them .The mind of a yogi,(a true yogi )is calm and from it creation and cognition arise as flowers,fruits and series of generations of thought for the next generation from the orderly synchronized past and present.And that part is unknown to doctors concerned with only the thoughts of a diseased mind immersed in selfish or mundane thought alone.The dream of a 8Ramanujan (of Namakkal Paradevatha)resulted in his creativity or rediscovery of magical squares.
At first ,in childhood I thought these dreams are from a past life,unknown to me altogether.But towards the end of my life,Iwonder,where my dreams predictive of my future too?Or is the past and the future the same point for a present moment?The lack of division into timespace in advaithic mind makes one wonder that way.All people see dreams,whether man or woman,whichever religion,caste ,creed or socioeconomic strata.No bar for age or language or spacetime for a dream.We touch not only the subconscious but also the superconscious planes in a dreamvision.When we see the same symbol repeatedly in an orderly rhythm,from childhood,that has to be considered not as an ordinary dream but a predictive or a rediscovery dream .Dreams are universal symbols since they recur in all people irrespective of any difference in spacetime or other attributes mentioned above.
There is a symbol of Dreamy prediction in Bible.That of9 Ezekiel.Ezekiel on the 30th ruling year.4th month,5th day saw the heaven’s door open and God appear.There was a northern hurricane,a bright firy envelope ,and in that cosmic dance of nature he saw a human form with 4 faces ,4 wings,and 4 such forms appeared.All had hoofs,and bright golden colour.The faces were lion,Garuda,Rishabha,and Man.Then he saw a light like lightening(in Veda soudaminisamaprabha)and the voice of God(as thunder)Whether in India or abroad,the dreams of celestial beings are seen as a vyuha ,usually of 4 or 8.Krishna,Durga,Vishnu,Rama,Sanaka and his brothers,Angels ,evangelists ,all are in vyuha,never alone.In the Suvishesha of Mark,which starts with the white pigeon of peace and th e healing power of prophet,there is the symbol of lion.
So it is quiet natural for me to have dreamed of a raasichakra in the middle of which the Devi stood,it was also perfectly natural to visualize the 4 lionesses who delivered 4 kitten.10.The dream just show that I am also destined to see the cosmic proportions and to talk on world peace and harmony.And for healing powers of music .What Ezekiel saw was ,the 4 cosmic directions of rishabha(with pleides or karthika in it),simha (with Magha and the saptharshi in it),
Garuda with a serpent (just opposite to rishabharasi is the vrischika with sarpamasthakam or Anuradha and the Jyeshta or balarama as Anantha naag)and the Aquaruius (man)or Hamsa (paramahansa)with Agastya and Vasishta opposite to that.These 4 points are 90 degree apart from each other and travel as a vyuha onlyThe cosmic form like this is seen by prehistoric men and women as dreamvisions.It is the KA of Brahmi,the chithrakoota of the serpent worshippers of India (The Bharadwaja group)and is the symbol of cosmic consciousness.The golden rectangle of the viswaroopa.
We know the growth of the body .It is visible.But our mind also grows.It is an invisible process.If it does not grow ,we become stunted.When a tree become old enough it produce flowers and fruits in appropriate rithu(season)natural to it.The dreams we see are like that.The end of a dream is when it is fulfilled.(or it become the fruit).Here the ancients and the modern dream analysts differ.
My dream is nature of my mind.If I am seeing Gayathri or Vishnu or whatever ,in my dream that is my nature.Or the rithupushpa my Atma creates on my mind.It has something to tell me.To teach me.As a human being,when a doctor listens to dreams of a client ,he should try to understand them in this way,not as mere illusions of a mad mind.Musical imagery in music therapy is used for this ,in my programmes.I would like to see the visions of the other world,the near death experiences etc of the clients to be seen as parts of human consciousness ,and not as the mad illusions.
In a similie of a plant with a blooming flower which turns to fruit,there is naturality,beauty ,fertility symbol and the concept of revival(punarjani),the nectar of eternity and Jung was able to see this ,unlike his predecessor Freud.The fertility of a plant is not sin.But a natural phenomenon for next generations to exist.A continuity of geneology .Of human race.That is a dharma,a duty ,and a beautiful experience for the rishi of India.And for all tribal cultures of the world and they saw it as a divine dream,as Ezekiel also did.The symbol of snake ,Goddess ,of Rasichakra as gates of heaven,swans,and other animals were interpreted in this way.
A rectangle or square with 4 sides,a quadrata divided into 4,a square within a circle,a mandala of Rasichakra,or squaring of the circle are symbol of individuation according to Jung’s dream experience.The total personality development is indicated by 4 cardinal points.The 4 and the circle enclose the whole.11Jung calls it the fourfold NIRDWANDWA(a Sanskrit word meaning not a second,or ONE ONLY)free from any opposites.Fantasies and dreams of a personal character may be explained by individual anamnesic but fantasies and dreams of an impersonal character cannot be reduced to experience of a single individual past,and are collective inherited memories or structural elements of human psyche.An autochthonous revivalof such memories as visions can happen in dreams in lucid states ,in yogic visions in reveries etc.The snake symbol or leminiscate12 ,a favourite symbol of collective psychic substratum 13which is localized anatomically in the subcortical centers ,cerebellum,spinal cord which constitute the snake according to Jung and kundalini according to eastern yogins (snake)are seen as early as Hippolytus ,Eleuchos 4.It is said that snake dreams occur when the conscious mind deviates from its instructional basis.And it has nothing connected to sin or sex.The fact is,symbols are the same,universal ones ,and it is the interpretor who interprets them as sin or sex whoshould be studied for the behaviour.The one who interprets it as a divine thing ,or a natural thing is safe.The one who interprets it as something bad or unnatural has something of that quality lurking inside as subconscious guilt feel.
I have seen snakes in dream only twice and those two occasions were good for me and not bad.And it had something to relate to my inner growth .My revered musical Guru K.J.Yesudas also had experience of three golden snakes in one of his dreams and it did not bring illluck to him either.
They were from heaven or may be from this beautiful earth,never from hell or from guilt conscience.The snakeshrine and its symbols in my ancestral house had always been auspicious to me in my life.
My birthstar
I was born when the sun is in Mesha (Aries)and the nakshathra or asterism of the moon in Punarvasu inMithun arasi on May 6th.From my childhood I had been the devotee of Krishna (Vishnu )as Guruvayurappan.When I learned the Dhyanaroopa of Vishnu (in my middle age)I was surprised to note that,In punarvasu star,the dhyana of Vishnu is as the long thin fingers playing the flute or the veena The poojadravya for Vishnu in this star is silk dress and long gourd(padavalangai which resembles long thin fingers of artistic people)Then I read Vamanapurana.It says if you are meditating on Shiva in the rasichakra,in Punarvasu in Mithuna meditate on him as siva and sakthy,preparing to merge with each other,,sitting on a cot together,They have musical instruments like veena in their arms.Are enjoying music together with musicians,dancers and shilpi(architects)around.They are traveling in leelagriha(playhouses)and Viharabhoomi together.This I read only in 2002.
My love for music and for Vishnu was written in my star ,when or may be before I was born .Such discoveries occur all on a sudden when you are least expecting them.If you are writing a diary you can analyse your stream of consciousness,the unexpected things happening in a regular order on which you have no control.
The first attempt of my diary writing was in 1969,as a student ,in my 23rd year.The mind was in a state of musical nirvana of love and was very immature at that stage,I can see when I read and look back at that diary.
Then there is a long silence of 7 years and diary writing resumes in 1976.(at age of 30)That was just after reading the 19 diaries given to me by my aunt of her uncle ,the poet –philosopher Narayanamenon.And I write in that diary.’A blow .A strong blow in life brings a thoughtful person to the infinite.The life is not for immersing in luxuries,in selfish motives.It is a lesson to a learned .Sorrow and pleasure follow each other.Then a quote from Swethaswetharaupanishad on the two suparnas.Then I state ,From now onwards I am into a permanent Tapas,a integration of karma,gnana and bhakthy.In my mind’s thriveni.In my practice of this I should never fail.I wont fail.Sitting in the vatmeeka of samsara,the long tapasya of philosophy makes me pure.It is because there are sorrows around me,that I am hearing that divine voice always within ,calling me for action,I have written in that diary(The internment experiences in the hospital in 1969 and suicide of a housesurgeon in 1975 December had prompted these )..
May 1976.An entry goes:The concept of heaven changes with age.While I was a kid,my heaven was a room full of icecream,Cadburys and toys.Then it became a beautiful garden of sweet smells and colours.Where beautiful gandharvas and Apsaras play around singing,smiling,dancing.Then there had always been a small baby KRISHNA with a peacock feather and a flute .The concept of heaven is actually the state of our mind in particular spacetime.
I had excerpts from Das capital and vivekanadasahitya copied in this diary.The quote of Marx”The prescription of superstitions which appear cruel to individuals ,are conservative for the community,and the preservation of the labouring cattle secures the power of cultivation and the sources of future life and wealth.’He says this about the protection of the cow in India.For a agricultural economy ,cattle which give labour as well as manure ,and energy (gober)to the rural people has to be considered as power and should be protected.If not,the agriculture suffers.I felt that is a good point of observation he made.When the nationalist movement took the symbol of the two oxen with a plough ,this social message was there,but unfortunately it is no more with us.The dharma,humane felings,economy of a agricultural land all depended on cattle and Krishna the cowherdboy ,the protector of cattle become a sociopolitical symbol ,with his brother carrying a plough for irrigation with yamuna canalwater.
In November the stream of consciousness views the deforestation for exploitation,and the habit of planting Ucalyptus which is not good for rootsoil,and a dream of Advaithic nation with no such exploitation of nature .The economy should be equal to all.Then there is a short article written for Grihalaxmi weekly ,written as per request of the then editor.
There are two diaries in 1977.One deals with immunopathology,neuroendocrine functions and is purely medical.The other deals with Katha Upanishad and the Gita and also quotes from National parent teacher (April 1955)an American journal.It says:’Modern education is that mysterious process whereby information passes from the lecture notes of the Professor,through the fountain pen of the student into his notebook,without passing through the minds of either”.
I used to say these satirical words about the routine type of lectures ,in my lecture clases,to enforce that our lectures and learning process should not be like that.And in one of the college magazines one of my students(Dr T.P.Nazer)quoted this as said by a madam wearing a large kumkum on her forehead looking like a Brahmin lady.And that created a small tempest in the teapot of Pathology department where at that time there was only one Brahmin lady who was vehemently opposing that she has never said that and all others wondering who might have said that!
Then comes a nostalgic page.The 5th birthday of my son.He had given a picture of Christ and sweets to his sister in convent school and she had in return given a beautiful bouquet of flowers.I could see the dry petals of those flowers in my diary page with a short comment from me:When he is grown up and I am no more,he might one day see these a s a remembrance of his childhood days and of his loving mother.”
Then there come quotes from Arshagnana,message of Upanishads,secret doctrine of Blavatsky,in between some easy recipe for my kitchen,and several songs written down in haste.that year I had the first Gayathri darsan but I didnt write it down,because I thought that was just an illusion I had because of my tired brain.I had the secret doctrine of Madame Blavatsky from year 1975 onwards with me and I remember that it was always on my granduncles desk and later on I read that this book had always been on the desk of Einstein (from a right up in the Hindu on Adyar library on 19.June 2008 only ,I knew this).
By 1978,I can see that the silly girl of 1969 has become a mature person.Vivakanada,Leadership and crisis(Robert Lhamblein )international relations,Plato’s republic were in the reading list .There are several film songs .Then a quote saying that for an intelligent woman the best.relationship is the good companion pattern.Because it is for the strong est initiative,intelligent persons.
Cattel’s theorem,how group discussions should be used for decisionmaking,and problem solving (professional)social communication and its importance come in the year 1978.The phases of group problem solving and its awareness had helped me a lot in my later life as a teacher,pathologist ,administrator,and researcher.(When I write this ,I have resigned fromA mritha hospital for a special administrative reason.It is 4th and 5th stage of a group problem solving activity which no one knows.But I know what I am doing .For a valuebased educational dream ,I had to set an example by that.)
Diary 1979.
In the pages of it I fished out an old letter sent by Soolapaniwarrier to Bhanu.It is written on 14.12.79.He says not to worry about my health but to think about his health .And he says according to Abhilash’s horoscope the mother has a healthy,long life and a very good future life.He says he has my birthcahart with him and that the fractures etc might have occurred several times before 11 years (fall etc)and will be naturally over with sukra apaharam and no need to do any parihara for that.Then he says he remembers a tiny face of mine which he had seen long back in Nalapat.And the divine light of my granduncle’s face and his help and educative talks which made him what he is,he can never forget and they are his vedavakya for life.
Then comes vivekanada,Socrates,social psychology,excerpts from kuran,geetharahasya,sriramakrishnavachanamritha,biography of Marx,Gandhism,socialism and the concept of the 3 gayathridarsan in a row.Which had given me a shock as well as a calm and peace not known before.By 10 years (from 1969)my love has become one for the entire universe!!I can go through that now by just reading through the pages of my streams of consciousness in these diaries!! Relive those moments of growth!
The next decade 1980-1989
There are 4 diaries in 1980
1.The kerala Govt diary:A Malayalam version pf pathology was attempted at this stage.some references in Pathology,Govardhanagiridhara of NarayanaTheerthar.
The data collected for an astrological research on cancer and other diseases,an opinion about the literary criticism discussion that was being published in Mathrubhoomi.
There were many who were criticizing destructively The discussions should be impersonal.Should not cross barriers to the personal level.
2.Manorama diary :Amarakosam,Rusel,Jungian psychology,sex education,communism and Christianity,the matter prepared for AIR Calicut on 22.1.80 on valuebased education.
The syllabus committee of Sidharthasankar Ray,public philosophy of Walter Whitman,difference between a voter and a citizen,public interests,unbalanced budgets,communist manifesto and Jacobites dogmas,educational psychology ,how to improve and increase the selfconfidence of the people,and for what ,how to do selfanalysis and find out our own weaknesses and rectify them.
3.Another Manorama diary:How to develop ethical sense in children?Rigveda,eduation,the Lumbini script (Brahmi)numismatics.Has a woman the strength to face difficulties?The topic discussion in AIR (19.9.80)Gayathri,astrology,Meteors(Fedyensky)Narayanatharvasiropanishad,Albert Camus and a few songs(film)
4.LIC Diary:My pleasures,my motto,my aim,my creed,religion and caste/in one page.The importance of joboriented education,wholistic education,planets,history,astrology,difference between samadhi and hypnotism,thaoism,Mithraeism,yogasidhi and realization of God.
In December 1980 following these streams f consciousness we decided to take Brahmacharya from Kanyakumari .Within a week ,the fishermen in the sea around kanyakumari got a sivalinga from the sea.
1981.
Astrology.A radioprogramme on 3.3.81(why we are unable to prevent cruelties to women by the law alone?)and seminar on Education for the future India(22.2.1981).How is our economy destroyed by the negative type of strikes?History.Skylark(shelley’s poem)Bharatheeyadarsanam,sadacharasasthram,sreechakram,Astronomical riddles in Mahabharatha,Home sweet home,a programme on AIR (October 6)
1982.There is a letter written by Valiyamma(Balamani amma)within the pages of this diary.And a paper cutting saying:”The practice of unalloyed devotion to the Lord b y developing a distaste for any sense-pleasure and by reveting the mind on Him through discipline will enable an aspirant to capture the form of God and enshrine Him in his heart.Cultivating extreme repugnance to worldly objects ,listening to the narratives of the sports of God,looking after the welfare of all beings ,abstaining from exploitation of others,bearing no illwill towards anyone,eschewing the company of nonbelievers of God,observing strict celibacy,refraining from gossip,resorting to meditation in solitude,remaining friendly and adopting austerity in food habits are some of the steps to attain God.Having gone through joys and sorrows,a person,who has thus controlled his mind,will develop detachment .He will gradually withdraw himself from the world.
The mystic cosmic poetry of shelley and Christian Morgenstern ,a direction to see pages 101-108 of Ammaman’s diary for information on classical music of India,speed of sound333/sec,a dispute on Autopsy in the department,a few lines from bible .
March 31 .1982.A writing on sreenivasaramanujam’s magical squares .And then how I could relate it to my Gayathri darsan,astronomy,Ezekiel and his vision,Ayurveda,Duncan’s according to the evidence,binary systems,sahasraaram,Adityahridayam,diary of Ammaman,music,Pythagorus and Arabian music,sreechakra,suryasavithry,leelavathy of Bhaskaracharya,Fibonacci,sound waves.
80-100 decibel decrease audition
100-120-ear aches
140-160 neurosis,psychosis
over 160 even coma and death
over 90 decibels is responsible for various diseases.over 20000 Hz ear cannot receive the waves which are ultrasonic.(a graph of this)If foetus subjected to more tha n80 decibels the child will be small and even congenital anomalies can occur.
1985.manorama diary,
The utpathykrama.On Amyoppu,the dream about janaki Amma,Bhanu,The worlds lost mysteries,
1985 unisan diary:The issue register of books of Abhilash,TV Time table,,cosmos excerpts from Carl sagan show.
1986.two diaries.
1.The music written for vasanthy on saibaba,
sankaracharya,the ekathmabharathasilpi,astrophysics,origin of moon (theories)astronomical calculations,Ptolemy,T.O.Map,preliterate societies and their culture,The challenge of teaching,the vansa of Mercury,The kalasarpayoga of Oct 30th.
Koutilya,the sacrificial hall ,Rober t Garisto and Newton,cosmic order(ritham)
Nabu chandasar ,Budha and Arabic script for Nabi
Sakthipeetham,Andal,History,Rgveda.
2.Unisan diary.Thirupathy mahotsava,(brahmotsava)chinese language,rain in North Arcot district from 1979-86,diary of Abhimon,notes for speeches,Brahmanalakshana,secrets of pyramids,mysteries and wonders from all over the world.
1987:Astronomical calculations,rigveda,science for everyone,how we can see what we see,(V.Denmidov).The boundary of preconscious ,purpose of calendar,discussion on arshagnana,(7.10.87)origin of terms,a new epoch,letter of kala .edappally on 6.5.97 and its reply.
Dec 10.89.article of sujatha and reply to it.The article ,Newton and Howard gardners Frames of Mind.(read on May 1987)The parts about musical intelligence is copied in full,because that was very interesting and I wanted to learn about it ,through the musical intelligence of contemporary singer yesudas,.Numismatics and psychology.
1988.Sriramachakra,pascals law,chandas,science of music,astronomical laws,difference of opinion with Dr Raaman ,time of vararuchi,his vakyam,brihadaranyaka guruparampara,9 jewels,29 vyasa,secret doctrine,susruthasamhitha,festivals of Singapore and Indonesia,their languages,research on women participation in academic chairs of calicut med college,expanding role of women in sciences.
1989.Susruthasanhitha,hindu mythology,and religion by John Da wson.
(In this decade came a few novels.amrithajyothi and panchasidhanthika from my pen and I took my MD in pathology too.And Abhilash completed his school education and entered college.)
Th e next decade is 1990-2000
There are 2 diaries in 1990.One deals with the cultural history of kerala and the other is part 3 of patheyam,the official part of my biography.Regarding pathology,research,administration and so on.
1991 there are 5 diaries,the first two are part 5 and 4 of biography.Also the menu for Bhanu,kuran,secret doctrine about karthika or pleides,the relation of absoo or the abyss of learning and the naaga,synopsis for book naagapanchamam,and a talk for August 15th ,on the gains of 50 years of independence and what we should do for further development,religion and political conflicts in south asia,pavangal,etc .
Another diary is excerpts from new york academy of sciences on nature of native language acquisition,and foreign language acquisition..Psychic phenomenon,precognition,psychokinesis,the meaning of psi,pk and methods of learning and teaching techniques ,the true aim of education,a useful change in behaviour,planning strategies to solve problems,vedanthasuthra with sribhashya of ramanuja,yagna in taithireeyasamhitha
.Then the next diary with historical studies and articles ,on lakshmanadesikendra,author of saradathilaka,jaipur observatory and instruments used in it,the contribution of India to archeological research,the magic worldof pyramids,sound,language and numbers,the mythology of south and central America,scythians,shefa who visited Solomon ,the chera,chola,pandya and mooshakavansa history.
Another one contains susruthasamhitha,saradthilaka excerpts,and in one of them how monkeys are given artificial nirvana by an electronic brain experiment .a button is pressed so that 3 times/sec for 18 hrs or 194400 times .In amygdala are the memories of fear.Basal ganglion has memories of habits /physical skills.Hippocampus is seat of memory.Ascending reticular activating system from lower one third of brainstem to posterior hypothalamus as seat of consciousness.
The making of a poet-seamus Heaney ,wb yeats,speech for Annie Besant memorial lecture,speech for Nalapatan award for Leelavathy about her book on archetypes,A vision of wb yeats, when allplanets join in punarvasu in karkitaka,the fire of the heavens,and universe returns to its seed position.Uthradam in utharayanabindu,is watery lunar,by nature and have love and discord with fire,both.They dominate in turn,lovemaking all the things into one,advaitha,and when they are indiscord every thing in the world separate and this opposite states go on endlessly repeating.
Then two papercuttings on yesudas.
Concepts of literature.myth and literature.
How parents can help in developing overall personality of children –a speech for st michels school calicut
Oriental elements in 19th century romantic poetry
Mudra a study of ujjainy by onv.vachanamritham for AIR,Bhakthilakshanam,J.Krishnamurthy and the nameless experience by rohit mehta,problems in ahmes papyrus,kumaon pictures,saraswathy chowky,dhooli chouki,numismatics.
Next diary with selected poems and a symbol of 5 pointed star,the sweetness of nivedya about valiyamma’s poems,a new model of universe by pd ouspensky,a preface to wordsworth,the prelude his poetic biography, That one is interesting.
Wordsworth observes that our memories are selective and protects us from falling into the abyss of despair.This renewal happens when our imagination and mind are in control.These moments happen in childhood itself.And the memory lingers in old age even,protecting us.He had it at the age of 5-6Ihad at the age of 7-8.
Experience of Wordsworth:At the age of 5,while he was riding a horse ,he was gripped by a fear,and a vision helped himout of that fear.The vision was of a turf,a pool,a beacon and a woman.Years after when he fell in love,he saw the same place and vision –he wandered there youth’s golden gleam is the word used.The greatness of man is created out of childhood experiences and we contribute ourselves something to the mere impressions.The childhood experiences were the sources of his creative power,and it was like a door suddenly opened and the memory of it lingered in later life (Pratyabhigna of Indian)He says The days goneby come back upon me from the dawn almost of life which signify the memory of past life.’
The perspectives in philosophy and science religion and art by I.C Philosophical research follows.The last of the 1992 diaries is on administration,management,education,pleides and the kabirim.nagapanchamam.
1993has 3 diaries.one starts with coleridge,and poems to shiva by indira viswanatha Peterson.in memorium of Tennyson and ammaman’s kannuneerthulli comparison,lunar craters,nidanasthanam or pathology in susruthasamhitha,sandranandam,a note for kashaya of bhanu.
The second one a speech for advocates association on love,a speech on how to make blood donation safe ,AIR Vachanamritham ,107th birthday of ammaman symposium on poetry after nalapatan,inauguration by k.p.na.p and presided by payipra radhakrishnan who wanted my susruthasamhitha for sahityaacademy after hearing my speech,
The brontes,the respects paid to EMS and speech on roopabhadrathavadam.
Prabhashanam on vayala vasudevan pillai’s death of a bird.
Romantic imagination by c.m boura,diffeence between romantic and realist.Romantic sits alone with eyes turned inwards,realist sits in company ,among several people making lot of noise.
A visionary or darsanika has 5 eyes like 5faced shiva.one turned to stars and sun and sky,one to the outside just like any other person,one romantic eye,one to the prakrithy,prapancha,and the 5th to oneself,to the inner consciousness.He may see what the common man see or may not see that at all.But the darsana or vision of a visionary is never seen by a common man,and he lives in the sunrise of eternity as said by Blake.Romantist strongly feels that he ispart of the creation and creativity.
12.12.93 narayaneeyadinam bhakthythatwa and vedantha speech at guruvayur.chathusloki from brahmasoothra of sankara,speech on the karmayoga of vivekananda to NSS Womens polytechnic .Guruvayur utsavam speech on bhakthy based on balamani amma’s poetry. Study o f devindra kohli on kamaladas excerpts.march 6th sadsamgam at NSS Karayogam speech.
72 melakartharaaga-the name fromammaman’s diary in 1993 .
madhavikuttiyude varshangalkku mumpu,oru pathrapravarthakante ormakurippukal,poem nishkramanam. Chilappathikaram into Malayalam as poetry ,translation work.
1994 four diaries.
Sopanasamgheetham,lokantharangalil,gurupaadangalil,nakshathraroopa for meditation,infinity and the mind by rudy rucker,goddell ,mysticism and rationality,thirukkural.
Patheyam book 7 .
Dept of foreign languages influence of French literature on sociopolitical and cultural fields of kerala,notes on jesudas kutchery,sandranandam,on a adivasi mother who nostalgically remembers picking mahua flowers,a questionnaire of chilla magazine on sthree dharma answered,pumsavanam,yesudas conversations,
Excerpts from diary of nalapat,on music,literature and life.
1995.
ancient myths in modern poetry,focus on yeats,ezra pound eliot and auden.freud and jung on myths the psychoanalytical background,the way of the zen and aroopadhyanam,the romantic survival ,a study in poetic evolution,Marxist theories /structuralist Marxism.recent developments by eagleton,readeroriented theories,theoies of reader psychology,feminist criticism,political feminism,3 phases of gynocritics,as feminine,feminist and female phase,French feminist critical theory,laccan
communication and leadership,assessing quality and quantity of work done,the crest of the peacock,ambergriss,Phoenician religion and temple,mitotic cycle,agni as regular pyramid or tetrahedron,earth as cube or hexahedron,air as octahedron ,water as icosahedron,akasa as dodecahedron with a central pentagon.
Carlyle’s literature –lectures on heroes,greenhouse effect,roger penrose,the world’s oldest roads,jews of Israel,archives of environmental health,900 AD Chingelpet inscription,village assembly with executive committee rules and functions.Thodaas,
Sushumna suryachakradhyanam and avahanam of Krishna from sun to heart .by spanda becomes suvarnavarna from blue.thapoloka near sahasrara is yellow golden and when we visualize that colour our intellectual pursuits become better and unselfish.All the 7 swaras are contained in the golden colour.
On thirunava,volcano eruptions,earthquakes,kutch lipi,platonic solids,fullerene and garudane.
Response management in organizations,risk analysis in decisionmaking,crisis management,TQM,leadership problems,ohio model,traits to be possessed,guidelines,inertia between coordinates the theories of Einstein.
Souvarnam ,mandukyakarika,Wittgenstein,a study on Viennese positivism,visions of vedic poets,varieties of religious experiences,critical exposition of philosophy of leibniz,hegel and modern philosophy,hindu view of art,thaithareeyam,translation as discovery,literature,social consciousness and polity,reality knowledge of value,truth as cocorrespondence –existentialist view.concept of praamanya in navyanyaya school.Man as transcendence,jyothisha a comprison,mundakam and mandukyam,media and women a speech
1996
sandilyabhakthisoothra with swapneswarabhashya
poems .modern man in search of soul by jung.poetryand the sacred.mysticism a study in nature and development of man’s spiritual consciousness by evelyn underhill.
Huge of st victor three types of music.
1.prapanchasangheetham.
A.of the 5 elements number
Measure,dimension
Weight,gravity
B.planets position
Movement,velocity,momentum
Nature
C.Time
Day month year
Light darkness dark bright six rithu/ seasons
2.. Human music
1.Godmade vocal from the body as daiveeveena
2.from the athma spiritual also daiveeveena
3.merging of the two.cosmic and bioenergy music as neuroscience,devotional experiences,art and science of music
3.Instrumental music which is manmade.
We are not seeing truth ,we are hearing and listening to it.Aheavenly melody ,intolerably sweet ,all symbolic languages come and fill the mind of the mystic.mysticism joins hands with music and poetry.description of a spiritual experience is always symbolic.
Three thirsts of man.
1.we become travelers or pilgrims from the known to the unknown world
2.we become lovers when the thirst for heart to heart or athma to athma become predominant
3.we become yogins when thirst for perfection and internal purity predominates.
Poornatha or perfection is the most beautiful vision .The three types of mystics with these three thirsts or temperaments are
1.mystic quest
2.marriage of the soul
3.great work of spiritual alchemists who use the metallic and planetary images and language of alchemists.
Mystic is a totally mad being who had drunk the perfect beauty(soundaryalahari)of eternal light ,by turning his/her eye into the depths of ananthatha or endless wisdom.The one who is lucky to get a glimpse,or just a sip is his twin,the artist(musician,poet,dreamers,prophets)who lives half in dark and half in brightness.American psychologist Bucke has analysed this type of artists also in the group of cosmic consciousness.I am happy about that.Because,I am more of the first type sometimes drifting into the second as a poet.
Three types of visions
1.intellectual(spiritual)
2.imaginery
3.corporeal.
The first comes to us without our asking,as if some other power has planted it there.It is very intimate to us,and is not explainable.A formless presence.A formless akshara.A feeling that God is with us. This could be a symbolic form or a personal one.The lightriver of Dante is a symbolic dream of truth.It takes the visionary to a plane of eternity.This is not madness.In a meditative person it appear involuntarily,at the summit of a train of thought.Dhyana is the media of the mystic.It is to him/her what harmony is to a musician,form and colour to an artist,meter to a poet,-vehicle by which we can best apprehend the good and beautiful ,enter into communion with the real.
As a voice or a vision is the way in which his/her transcendental consciousness presents its discoveries to the surfacemind so contemplation is the way in which it makes those discoveries ,perceives the suprasensible;The growth of his/her effective genius.It is connected to our artistic growth.Growth is influenced by the vidya in turn.
These things are written .
Then the Tibetan book of the dead,psychological commentary by Jung,chandogyam,philosophy of the Tamil sidha as realized souls.
The panchamakara
Madya is the symbol of gnaana which makes you drunk with bliss
Matsya is the pranayama.
Mamsa is control of vak and senses
Mudra is the dhyanamudra of yogi
Maithuna is thanmayeebhava with paramarthasatha.
Pleasures of philosophy by will Durant.pp 387 deals with 4 stages of development in understanding religion.1.emotional belief
2.metaphysical bvelief3.absolut edisillusionment4.aesthetic understanding(the best)
A speech for All India astrological conference at Alwaye on 15.9.1996.
1997 diary
Leela the game of knowledge,the 72 squares which make up the field of the cosmic play and the musical scales.
Introduction to philosophy by Russell.PEANO .
Men and movements in American philosophy
The mind of sankaracharya
First principles by spencer
Scence and religion an interpretation of 2 communities (both are 3 fold and circular.
Ananda an experience
A comprehensive anthology of fundamental writings eastern mysticism
She was queen of Egypt
Surely you are joking ,mr Feynman.
On precision of equinox .carl sagan predictions
Freud and dreams ESP Research
Psi processes clairvoyance ,telepathy.
The faith and modern science
Esoteric Christianity
Village gods of south India
Ramayana traditions in asia
Philosophy and scientific cognition,
Esoteric Christianity
The problems of Newton.
1998.travel to Nepal
secret doctrine
dead towns and living men
speeches of lord curzon
theory of evolution
jesus lived in India.(This I read after settling at Ernakulam)
1999
I have compiled all my Krishna poems and collected in a single diary.
Nepal travelogue 6.2 1999.sandranandam
16.5.99 Pragna reiki inauguration at moovattupuzha
ammadevi cult
18.5.99 a dream vision.
Kannan paadalkal
M.P Veerendrakumar and C.K.Sujith kumar award at Nalapatan cultural society speech
Vishnusahasranaamam
Oct 10th Mammiyur devaswom sangheetholsavan arambham
MSS Meera padalkal
72 melakartha and naagakkettu.
I have just enumerated the stream of consciousness in 30 years(1969-1999).How my mind had been concentrated on things which are not mundane for such a long time,so that I cant sometimes understand the ordinary loukika talks.That doesn’t touch me much.Just superficial hearing only.The growth is something like an inward growth ,and then viewing the outside world from within .A figure of 8 pattern of vision.A witness only ,not touched by the external world .In 1999 I realized with wonder that I had been prepared for a realization from childhood through my repetive dream visions ,to do something which even I didn’t know.A sort of astronomical synchronicity.This niyoga is around vridhachala and its memory.
The temple at vridhachala has only 72 karana unlike other temples which have 108 .
Leela (gnan chowpad has )72 cubes
360 degree of brahmanda is 72X 5 or a panchamukha ,pentagon ,the golden proportion of thripurasundari.(panchanan or shiva,simha or vahana of Durga)It is the most perfect aesthetic model of beauty.
72 Melakartha raga I FIRS T CAME ACROSS IN AMMAMAN’S DIARY.
72000 madhunadi,72000 jeevanadi,72 melakartha,all come and superimpose in my mind’s canvas and when I am right in the middle of finding out the place of me in this mandala of 72,yesudas comes into my life .The right person to stimulate the musical 72 melakartha and the music therapy thoughts dormant in my interdisciplinary mind.God’s moves are always in the correct time,correct place,Ibelieve.The recognition of my Vridhachala dream ,not only as a past memory of a bygone life,but also as a predictive dream for my life to evolve into,suddenly dawns in me.After all ,the past and future always merge in present for an advaithic mind.No divisions for time in thrikaalagna mind.So past and future merged in my present as an eternal spacetime and revelations flooded my mind as never before.the diary from 2000 to 2007(now)shows the difference in pattern very well.
The journey has completed a full circle from Ammaman’s death and vision of vridhachala,to series of interdisciplinary studies keeping me away from mundane influences ,and then seeing ammaman’s diary with the term melakartharaaga and the interconnectedness of that number with every other thing I had learned and to music .Then vision and aquaintance and communication with a musical genius and manasaguru(The unexpected happened as if from Heaven a star dropped in front) which gives an intuitive revival of all experiences and integrative summing up,for recognition of my niyoga and role in life,though late.Better late than never!!!Dreams come from heaven.My life story has taught me that.
With this I have given a glimpse of the curios I have collected and kept in the corridors of my personal mental,intellectual timespan and this would help you as my readers to assess what type of a mind/intellect I have and probably what you can expect from my writings too.It is an introduction to the larger corridors of time (impersonal)that we are passing in this sojourn .We are passing from the personal timespace to impersonal timespace and the corridors of that broader span is in direct continuity with my personal narrower biological limited timespace just as the cosmos is related to a paramaanu forever in a nitya relationship.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Dreams from heaven
Dreams From Heaven!!!!
(Summing up the stream of consciousness as diary from 1969-1999)
When I wrote Patheyam,1my spiritual autobiography,someone asked,Arent the dreams you describe an illusionary world? That is not the real world.Where should I separate illusion and reality?I always wonder.Johannes Kepler 2dreamt that he has seen the clock of heavens and that he was traveling to the moon.And he really created those as science,not as dream.His dream became science for the next generation.Kekule 3dreamed of two intertwining serpents devouvouring the tail of the other,and he found out the 6 carbon ring of Benzene from that dream.Benzene ring is science and the dream which gave birth to it is not science.What is that logic,I wonder!
Varahamihira 4talks about the illusion of passage of time.And of space.Curt Godell5 said about it:Illusion of passage of time arise from confusing the real and the given.We think of occupying different realities.In fact there is only one reality.And Einstein6 carried the torch ahead.
When I sit down and try to organize my old diaries and copy some excerpts on to my computer,I remember these.A diary is a running commentary ,of your stream of consciousness over a long period of time.Disordered,it may seem,but on second check,a perfectly ordered rhythm is in it.The passage through the corridors of time of a limited individual life!!
My chronological age is 61.But my stream of consciousness goes back to millions and millions of years back.And create a new world from that for thhe new world of love and peace to emerge.My dreams and my streams of consciousness follow a cosmic calendar,I find with wonder from my old diaries.
In a cosmic calender one day is 40 million years!
One second is 500 years.
Every cosmic minute is 30000 years.
Converting that to degree,
10= 60’=180 0000 years
1 month(30 0)=54 00000 years
120 0(4 months)21600000 years
240 0 ,0r 8 months =43200000 years
Therefore 12 months or the circle of 360 0 is 64800000 years ,the energy number of Einstein.And this cosmic calendar was known to the Indian astronomer right from vedic times.Not the written vedic times,but the oral veda,the nomadic cattlerearing and early settling periods ,when mathematics was with just 3 symbols,a small line or stick,a dot(the decimal or the Bhadram) ,and a zero(open cowrie shell).The power notation of dasamsa was invented right back in the beginning of civilization in India,by a unknown ancestor who took a stick ,a bhadram and a cowrie and calculated the very big numbers of the yuga and the kalpa.Surprising.But there are many evidences for this .
The dream when in a single tiny moment ,time,energy and space become one with the dravya of our body giving us unusual insight into a bygone past and a passion to create a future of Oneness to the entire world(Advaitha)is my only reality.And for creating those beautiful dreams ,Indian classical and light music has been my friends/or aides.When I review my life at the age of 60 I find only this reality.All the other experiences were just illusions.And ,then I remember the words of Krishna in the Gita,that a yogi is awake when others are asleep and asleep when others are awake.That is absolutely true.What is real for a Advaithin may be Greek and Latin for others.And what is real for them is just an illusionary world for the Advaithin.
The truth of an astronomer is both the dream and reality of the ancient rishi.The essence of all the living and nonliving things,of all the civilizations and languages,sciences and arts consolidated as the rasa experience of soundaryalahari in a split second in one’s consciousness as if in a mirror ,in a dreamy mirror.They come to us in our deep sleep as visions,because that is the only natural state when we forget our sense experiences and are totally transcendental.We are then beyond the limitations of our socalled limited personality/ego and the limited experiences of this world.The history of mankind as we know it today is only a few last seconds in a cosmic calendar of mahakalpa and yuga.This small day-to-day life which we think as real is not the real.It is something beyond this.
For a soul to evolve fully the environment is selected by an unknown power.We don’t choose our parents .The parents,the home,the spacetime for the event (birth)is beyond our free will.This then determine our education and the possibility of wisdom we aquire.We are given the appropriate experiences,friendships,acquaintances at the correct moment so that we evolve fully.We don’t have free will on that too.
The poetic and logical truth or reality (reality of jagrad and swapna)are the function of the brain.The right and left hemispheres have a perfect job division.My brain has to be a combination of both.I cant deny my right brain’s existence.I cant deny the dream experiences as illusion,because that too is the experience of my own brain.Dreams are like flowers to a plant,natural to human mind.We cant deny them as illusory.They are more real than what we call real.It is a neverending fountain of my cognitive and creative power.The dream analysis of clinical psychiatry after 7Freud was concerned with dreams and imaginations of a diseased brain.The dreams and imageries of a perfectly healthy mind was not studied by them .The mind of a yogi,(a true yogi )is calm and from it creation and cognition arise as flowers,fruits and series of generations of thought for the next generation from the orderly synchronized past and present.And that part is unknown to doctors concerned with only the thoughts of a diseased mind immersed in selfish or mundane thought alone.The dream of a 8Ramanujan (of Namakkal Paradevatha)resulted in his creativity or rediscovery of magical squares.
At first ,in childhood I thought these dreams are from a past life,unknown to me altogether.But towards the end of my life,Iwonder,where my dreams predictive of my future too?Or is the past and the future the same point for a present moment?The lack of division into timespace in advaithic mind makes one wonder that way.All people see dreams,whether man or woman,whichever religion,caste ,creed or socioeconomic strata.No bar for age or language or spacetime for a dream.We touch not only the subconscious but also the superconscious planes in a dreamvision.When we see the same symbol repeatedly in an orderly rhythm,from childhood,that has to be considered not as an ordinary dream but a predictive or a rediscovery dream .Dreams are universal symbols since they recur in all people irrespective of any difference in spacetime or other attributes mentioned above.
There is a symbol of Dreamy prediction in Bible.That of9 Ezekiel.Ezekiel on the 30th ruling year.4th month,5th day saw the heaven’s door open and God appear.There was a northern hurricane,a bright firy envelope ,and in that cosmic dance of nature he saw a human form with 4 faces ,4 wings,and 4 such forms appeared.All had hoofs,and bright golden colour.The faces were lion,Garuda,Rishabha,and Man.Then he saw a light like lightening(in Veda soudaminisamaprabha)and the voice of God(as thunder)Whether in India or abroad,the dreams of celestial beings are seen as a vyuha ,usually of 4 or 8.Krishna,Durga,Vishnu,Rama,Sanaka and his brothers,Angels ,evangelists ,all are in vyuha,never alone.In the Suvishesha of Mark,which starts with the white pigeon of peace and th e healing power of prophet,there is the symbol of lion.
So it is quiet natural for me to have dreamed of a raasichakra in the middle of which the Devi stood,it was also perfectly natural to visualize the 4 lionesses who delivered 4 kitten.10.The dream just show that I am also destined to see the cosmic proportions and to talk on world peace and harmony.And for healing powers of music .What Ezekiel saw was ,the 4 cosmic directions of rishabha(with pleides or karthika in it),simha (with Magha and the saptharshi in it),
Garuda with a serpent (just opposite to rishabharasi is the vrischika with sarpamasthakam or Anuradha and the Jyeshta or balarama as Anantha naag)and the Aquaruius (man)or Hamsa (paramahansa)with Agastya and Vasishta opposite to that.These 4 points are 90 degree apart from each other and travel as a vyuha onlyThe cosmic form like this is seen by prehistoric men and women as dreamvisions.It is the KA of Brahmi,the chithrakoota of the serpent worshippers of India (The Bharadwaja group)and is the symbol of cosmic consciousness.The golden rectangle of the viswaroopa.
We know the growth of the body .It is visible.But our mind also grows.It is an invisible process.If it does not grow ,we become stunted.When a tree become old enough it produce flowers and fruits in appropriate rithu(season)natural to it.The dreams we see are like that.The end of a dream is when it is fulfilled.(or it become the fruit).Here the ancients and the modern dream analysts differ.
My dream is nature of my mind.If I am seeing Gayathri or Vishnu or whatever ,in my dream that is my nature.Or the rithupushpa my Atma creates on my mind.It has something to tell me.To teach me.As a human being,when a doctor listens to dreams of a client ,he should try to understand them in this way,not as mere illusions of a mad mind.Musical imagery in music therapy is used for this ,in my programmes.I would like to see the visions of the other world,the near death experiences etc of the clients to be seen as parts of human consciousness ,and not as the mad illusions.
In a similie of a plant with a blooming flower which turns to fruit,there is naturality,beauty ,fertility symbol and the concept of revival(punarjani),the nectar of eternity and Jung was able to see this ,unlike his predecessor Freud.The fertility of a plant is not sin.But a natural phenomenon for next generations to exist.A continuity of geneology .Of human race.That is a dharma,a duty ,and a beautiful experience for the rishi of India.And for all tribal cultures of the world and they saw it as a divine dream,as Ezekiel also did.The symbol of snake ,Goddess ,of Rasichakra as gates of heaven,swans,and other animals were interpreted in this way.
A rectangle or square with 4 sides,a quadrata divided into 4,a square within a circle,a mandala of Rasichakra,or squaring of the circle are symbol of individuation according to Jung’s dream experience.The total personality development is indicated by 4 cardinal points.The 4 and the circle enclose the whole.11Jung calls it the fourfold NIRDWANDWA(a Sanskrit word meaning not a second,or ONE ONLY)free from any opposites.Fantasies and dreams of a personal character may be explained by individual anamnesic but fantasies and dreams of an impersonal character cannot be reduced to experience of a single individual past,and are collective inherited memories or structural elements of human psyche.An autochthonous revivalof such memories as visions can happen in dreams in lucid states ,in yogic visions in reveries etc.The snake symbol or leminiscate12 ,a favourite symbol of collective psychic substratum 13which is localized anatomically in the subcortical centers ,cerebellum,spinal cord which constitute the snake according to Jung and kundalini according to eastern yogins (snake)are seen as early as Hippolytus ,Eleuchos 4.It is said that snake dreams occur when the conscious mind deviates from its instructional basis.And it has nothing connected to sin or sex.The fact is,symbols are the same,universal ones ,and it is the interpretor who interprets them as sin or sex whoshould be studied for the behaviour.The one who interprets it as a divine thing ,or a natural thing is safe.The one who interprets it as something bad or unnatural has something of that quality lurking inside as subconscious guilt feel.
I have seen snakes in dream only twice and those two occasions were good for me and not bad.And it had something to relate to my inner growth .My revered musical Guru K.J.Yesudas also had experience of three golden snakes in one of his dreams and it did not bring illluck to him either.
They were from heaven or may be from this beautiful earth,never from hell or from guilt conscience.The snakeshrine and its symbols in my ancestral house had always been auspicious to me in my life.
My birthstar
I was born when the sun is in Mesha (Aries)and the nakshathra or asterism of the moon in Punarvasu inMithun arasi on May 6th.From my childhood I had been the devotee of Krishna (Vishnu )as Guruvayurappan.When I learned the Dhyanaroopa of Vishnu (in my middle age)I was surprised to note that,In punarvasu star,the dhyana of Vishnu is as the long thin fingers playing the flute or the veena The poojadravya for Vishnu in this star is silk dress and long gourd(padavalangai which resembles long thin fingers of artistic people)Then I read Vamanapurana.It says if you are meditating on Shiva in the rasichakra,in Punarvasu in Mithuna meditate on him as siva and sakthy,preparing to merge with each other,,sitting on a cot together,They have musical instruments like veena in their arms.Are enjoying music together with musicians,dancers and shilpi(architects)around.They are traveling in leelagriha(playhouses)and Viharabhoomi together.This I read only in 2002.
My love for music and for Vishnu was written in my star ,when or may be before I was born .Such discoveries occur all on a sudden when you are least expecting them.If you are writing a diary you can analyse your stream of consciousness,the unexpected things happening in a regular order on which you have no control.
The first attempt of my diary writing was in 1969,as a student ,in my 23rd year.The mind was in a state of musical nirvana of love and was very immature at that stage,I can see when I read and look back at that diary.
Then there is a long silence of 7 years and diary writing resumes in 1976.(at age of 30)That was just after reading the 19 diaries given to me by my aunt of her uncle ,the poet –philosopher Narayanamenon.And I write in that diary.’A blow .A strong blow in life brings a thoughtful person to the infinite.The life is not for immersing in luxuries,in selfish motives.It is a lesson to a learned .Sorrow and pleasure follow each other.Then a quote from Swethaswetharaupanishad on the two suparnas.Then I state ,From now onwards I am into a permanent Tapas,a integration of karma,gnana and bhakthy.In my mind’s thriveni.In my practice of this I should never fail.I wont fail.Sitting in the vatmeeka of samsara,the long tapasya of philosophy makes me pure.It is because there are sorrows around me,that I am hearing that divine voice always within ,calling me for action,I have written in that diary(The internment experiences in the hospital in 1969 and suicide of a housesurgeon in 1975 December had prompted these )..
May 1976.An entry goes:The concept of heaven changes with age.While I was a kid,my heaven was a room full of icecream,Cadburys and toys.Then it became a beautiful garden of sweet smells and colours.Where beautiful gandharvas and Apsaras play around singing,smiling,dancing.Then there had always been a small baby KRISHNA with a peacock feather and a flute .The concept of heaven is actually the state of our mind in particular spacetime.
I had excerpts from Das capital and vivekanadasahitya copied in this diary.The quote of Marx”The prescription of superstitions which appear cruel to individuals ,are conservative for the community,and the preservation of the labouring cattle secures the power of cultivation and the sources of future life and wealth.’He says this about the protection of the cow in India.For a agricultural economy ,cattle which give labour as well as manure ,and energy (gober)to the rural people has to be considered as power and should be protected.If not,the agriculture suffers.I felt that is a good point of observation he made.When the nationalist movement took the symbol of the two oxen with a plough ,this social message was there,but unfortunately it is no more with us.The dharma,humane felings,economy of a agricultural land all depended on cattle and Krishna the cowherdboy ,the protector of cattle become a sociopolitical symbol ,with his brother carrying a plough for irrigation with yamuna canalwater.
In November the stream of consciousness views the deforestation for exploitation,and the habit of planting Ucalyptus which is not good for rootsoil,and a dream of Advaithic nation with no such exploitation of nature .The economy should be equal to all.Then there is a short article written for Grihalaxmi weekly ,written as per request of the then editor.
There are two diaries in 1977.One deals with immunopathology,neuroendocrine functions and is purely medical.The other deals with Katha Upanishad and the Gita and also quotes from National parent teacher (April 1955)an American journal.It says:’Modern education is that mysterious process whereby information passes from the lecture notes of the Professor,through the fountain pen of the student into his notebook,without passing through the minds of either”.
I used to say these satirical words about the routine type of lectures ,in my lecture clases,to enforce that our lectures and learning process should not be like that.And in one of the college magazines one of my students(Dr T.P.Nazer)quoted this as said by a madam wearing a large kumkum on her forehead looking like a Brahmin lady.And that created a small tempest in the teapot of Pathology department where at that time there was only one Brahmin lady who was vehemently opposing that she has never said that and all others wondering who might have said that!
Then comes a nostalgic page.The 5th birthday of my son.He had given a picture of Christ and sweets to his sister in convent school and she had in return given a beautiful bouquet of flowers.I could see the dry petals of those flowers in my diary page with a short comment from me:When he is grown up and I am no more,he might one day see these a s a remembrance of his childhood days and of his loving mother.”
Then there come quotes from Arshagnana,message of Upanishads,secret doctrine of Blavatsky,in between some easy recipe for my kitchen,and several songs written down in haste.that year I had the first Gayathri darsan but I didnt write it down,because I thought that was just an illusion I had because of my tired brain.I had the secret doctrine of Madame Blavatsky from year 1975 onwards with me and I remember that it was always on my granduncles desk and later on I read that this book had always been on the desk of Einstein (from a right up in the Hindu on Adyar library on 19.June 2008 only ,I knew this).
By 1978,I can see that the silly girl of 1969 has become a mature person.Vivakanada,Leadership and crisis(Robert Lhamblein )international relations,Plato’s republic were in the reading list .There are several film songs .Then a quote saying that for an intelligent woman the best.relationship is the good companion pattern.Because it is for the strong est initiative,intelligent persons.
Cattel’s theorem,how group discussions should be used for decisionmaking,and problem solving (professional)social communication and its importance come in the year 1978.The phases of group problem solving and its awareness had helped me a lot in my later life as a teacher,pathologist ,administrator,and researcher.(When I write this ,I have resigned fromA mritha hospital for a special administrative reason.It is 4th and 5th stage of a group problem solving activity which no one knows.But I know what I am doing .For a valuebased educational dream ,I had to set an example by that.)
Diary 1979.
In the pages of it I fished out an old letter sent by Soolapaniwarrier to Bhanu.It is written on 14.12.79.He says not to worry about my health but to think about his health .And he says according to Abhilash’s horoscope the mother has a healthy,long life and a very good future life.He says he has my birthcahart with him and that the fractures etc might have occurred several times before 11 years (fall etc)and will be naturally over with sukra apaharam and no need to do any parihara for that.Then he says he remembers a tiny face of mine which he had seen long back in Nalapat.And the divine light of my granduncle’s face and his help and educative talks which made him what he is,he can never forget and they are his vedavakya for life.
Then comes vivekanada,Socrates,social psychology,excerpts from kuran,geetharahasya,sriramakrishnavachanamritha,biography of Marx,Gandhism,socialism and the concept of the 3 gayathridarsan in a row.Which had given me a shock as well as a calm and peace not known before.By 10 years (from 1969)my love has become one for the entire universe!!I can go through that now by just reading through the pages of my streams of consciousness in these diaries!! Relive those moments of growth!
The next decade 1980-1989
There are 4 diaries in 1980
1.The kerala Govt diary:A Malayalam version pf pathology was attempted at this stage.some references in Pathology,Govardhanagiridhara of NarayanaTheerthar.
The data collected for an astrological research on cancer and other diseases,an opinion about the literary criticism discussion that was being published in Mathrubhoomi.
There were many who were criticizing destructively The discussions should be impersonal.Should not cross barriers to the personal level.
2.Manorama diary :Amarakosam,Rusel,Jungian psychology,sex education,communism and Christianity,the matter prepared for AIR Calicut on 22.1.80 on valuebased education.
The syllabus committee of Sidharthasankar Ray,public philosophy of Walter Whitman,difference between a voter and a citizen,public interests,unbalanced budgets,communist manifesto and Jacobites dogmas,educational psychology ,how to improve and increase the selfconfidence of the people,and for what ,how to do selfanalysis and find out our own weaknesses and rectify them.
3.Another Manorama diary:How to develop ethical sense in children?Rigveda,eduation,the Lumbini script (Brahmi)numismatics.Has a woman the strength to face difficulties?The topic discussion in AIR (19.9.80)Gayathri,astrology,Meteors(Fedyensky)Narayanatharvasiropanishad,Albert Camus and a few songs(film)
4.LIC Diary:My pleasures,my motto,my aim,my creed,religion and caste/in one page.The importance of joboriented education,wholistic education,planets,history,astrology,difference between samadhi and hypnotism,thaoism,Mithraeism,yogasidhi and realization of God.
In December 1980 following these streams f consciousness we decided to take Brahmacharya from Kanyakumari .Within a week ,the fishermen in the sea around kanyakumari got a sivalinga from the sea.
1981.
Astrology.A radioprogramme on 3.3.81(why we are unable to prevent cruelties to women by the law alone?)and seminar on Education for the future India(22.2.1981).How is our economy destroyed by the negative type of strikes?History.Skylark(shelley’s poem)Bharatheeyadarsanam,sadacharasasthram,sreechakram,Astronomical riddles in Mahabharatha,Home sweet home,a programme on AIR (October 6)
1982.There is a letter written by Valiyamma(Balamani amma)within the pages of this diary.And a paper cutting saying:”The practice of unalloyed devotion to the Lord b y developing a distaste for any sense-pleasure and by reveting the mind on Him through discipline will enable an aspirant to capture the form of God and enshrine Him in his heart.Cultivating extreme repugnance to worldly objects ,listening to the narratives of the sports of God,looking after the welfare of all beings ,abstaining from exploitation of others,bearing no illwill towards anyone,eschewing the company of nonbelievers of God,observing strict celibacy,refraining from gossip,resorting to meditation in solitude,remaining friendly and adopting austerity in food habits are some of the steps to attain God.Having gone through joys and sorrows,a person,who has thus controlled his mind,will develop detachment .He will gradually withdraw himself from the world.
The mystic cosmic poetry of shelley and Christian Morgenstern ,a direction to see pages 101-108 of Ammaman’s diary for information on classical music of India,speed of sound333/sec,a dispute on Autopsy in the department,a few lines from bible .
March 31 .1982.A writing on sreenivasaramanujam’s magical squares .And then how I could relate it to my Gayathri darsan,astronomy,Ezekiel and his vision,Ayurveda,Duncan’s according to the evidence,binary systems,sahasraaram,Adityahridayam,diary of Ammaman,music,Pythagorus and Arabian music,sreechakra,suryasavithry,leelavathy of Bhaskaracharya,Fibonacci,sound waves.
80-100 decibel decrease audition
100-120-ear aches
140-160 neurosis,psychosis
over 160 even coma and death
over 90 decibels is responsible for various diseases.over 20000 Hz ear cannot receive the waves which are ultrasonic.(a graph of this)If foetus subjected to more tha n80 decibels the child will be small and even congenital anomalies can occur.
1985.manorama diary,
The utpathykrama.On Amyoppu,the dream about janaki Amma,Bhanu,The worlds lost mysteries,
1985 unisan diary:The issue register of books of Abhilash,TV Time table,,cosmos excerpts from Carl sagan show.
1986.two diaries.
1.The music written for vasanthy on saibaba,
sankaracharya,the ekathmabharathasilpi,astrophysics,origin of moon (theories)astronomical calculations,Ptolemy,T.O.Map,preliterate societies and their culture,The challenge of teaching,the vansa of Mercury,The kalasarpayoga of Oct 30th.
Koutilya,the sacrificial hall ,Rober t Garisto and Newton,cosmic order(ritham)
Nabu chandasar ,Budha and Arabic script for Nabi
Sakthipeetham,Andal,History,Rgveda.
2.Unisan diary.Thirupathy mahotsava,(brahmotsava)chinese language,rain in North Arcot district from 1979-86,diary of Abhimon,notes for speeches,Brahmanalakshana,secrets of pyramids,mysteries and wonders from all over the world.
1987:Astronomical calculations,rigveda,science for everyone,how we can see what we see,(V.Denmidov).The boundary of preconscious ,purpose of calendar,discussion on arshagnana,(7.10.87)origin of terms,a new epoch,letter of kala .edappally on 6.5.97 and its reply.
Dec 10.89.article of sujatha and reply to it.The article ,Newton and Howard gardners Frames of Mind.(read on May 1987)The parts about musical intelligence is copied in full,because that was very interesting and I wanted to learn about it ,through the musical intelligence of contemporary singer yesudas,.Numismatics and psychology.
1988.Sriramachakra,pascals law,chandas,science of music,astronomical laws,difference of opinion with Dr Raaman ,time of vararuchi,his vakyam,brihadaranyaka guruparampara,9 jewels,29 vyasa,secret doctrine,susruthasamhitha,festivals of Singapore and Indonesia,their languages,research on women participation in academic chairs of calicut med college,expanding role of women in sciences.
1989.Susruthasanhitha,hindu mythology,and religion by John Da wson.
(In this decade came a few novels.amrithajyothi and panchasidhanthika from my pen and I took my MD in pathology too.And Abhilash completed his school education and entered college.)
Th e next decade is 1990-2000
There are 2 diaries in 1990.One deals with the cultural history of kerala and the other is part 3 of patheyam,the official part of my biography.Regarding pathology,research,administration and so on.
1991 there are 5 diaries,the first two are part 5 and 4 of biography.Also the menu for Bhanu,kuran,secret doctrine about karthika or pleides,the relation of absoo or the abyss of learning and the naaga,synopsis for book naagapanchamam,and a talk for August 15th ,on the gains of 50 years of independence and what we should do for further development,religion and political conflicts in south asia,pavangal,etc .
Another diary is excerpts from new york academy of sciences on nature of native language acquisition,and foreign language acquisition..Psychic phenomenon,precognition,psychokinesis,the meaning of psi,pk and methods of learning and teaching techniques ,the true aim of education,a useful change in behaviour,planning strategies to solve problems,vedanthasuthra with sribhashya of ramanuja,yagna in taithireeyasamhitha
.Then the next diary with historical studies and articles ,on lakshmanadesikendra,author of saradathilaka,jaipur observatory and instruments used in it,the contribution of India to archeological research,the magic worldof pyramids,sound,language and numbers,the mythology of south and central America,scythians,shefa who visited Solomon ,the chera,chola,pandya and mooshakavansa history.
Another one contains susruthasamhitha,saradthilaka excerpts,and in one of them how monkeys are given artificial nirvana by an electronic brain experiment .a button is pressed so that 3 times/sec for 18 hrs or 194400 times .In amygdala are the memories of fear.Basal ganglion has memories of habits /physical skills.Hippocampus is seat of memory.Ascending reticular activating system from lower one third of brainstem to posterior hypothalamus as seat of consciousness.
The making of a poet-seamus Heaney ,wb yeats,speech for Annie Besant memorial lecture,speech for Nalapatan award for Leelavathy about her book on archetypes,A vision of wb yeats, when allplanets join in punarvasu in karkitaka,the fire of the heavens,and universe returns to its seed position.Uthradam in utharayanabindu,is watery lunar,by nature and have love and discord with fire,both.They dominate in turn,lovemaking all the things into one,advaitha,and when they are indiscord every thing in the world separate and this opposite states go on endlessly repeating.
Then two papercuttings on yesudas.
Concepts of literature.myth and literature.
How parents can help in developing overall personality of children –a speech for st michels school calicut
Oriental elements in 19th century romantic poetry
Mudra a study of ujjainy by onv.vachanamritham for AIR,Bhakthilakshanam,J.Krishnamurthy and the nameless experience by rohit mehta,problems in ahmes papyrus,kumaon pictures,saraswathy chowky,dhooli chouki,numismatics.
Next diary with selected poems and a symbol of 5 pointed star,the sweetness of nivedya about valiyamma’s poems,a new model of universe by pd ouspensky,a preface to wordsworth,the prelude his poetic biography, That one is interesting.
Wordsworth observes that our memories are selective and protects us from falling into the abyss of despair.This renewal happens when our imagination and mind are in control.These moments happen in childhood itself.And the memory lingers in old age even,protecting us.He had it at the age of 5-6Ihad at the age of 7-8.
Experience of Wordsworth:At the age of 5,while he was riding a horse ,he was gripped by a fear,and a vision helped himout of that fear.The vision was of a turf,a pool,a beacon and a woman.Years after when he fell in love,he saw the same place and vision –he wandered there youth’s golden gleam is the word used.The greatness of man is created out of childhood experiences and we contribute ourselves something to the mere impressions.The childhood experiences were the sources of his creative power,and it was like a door suddenly opened and the memory of it lingered in later life (Pratyabhigna of Indian)He says The days goneby come back upon me from the dawn almost of life which signify the memory of past life.’
The perspectives in philosophy and science religion and art by I.C Philosophical research follows.The last of the 1992 diaries is on administration,management,education,pleides and the kabirim.nagapanchamam.
1993has 3 diaries.one starts with coleridge,and poems to shiva by indira viswanatha Peterson.in memorium of Tennyson and ammaman’s kannuneerthulli comparison,lunar craters,nidanasthanam or pathology in susruthasamhitha,sandranandam,a note for kashaya of bhanu.
The second one a speech for advocates association on love,a speech on how to make blood donation safe ,AIR Vachanamritham ,107th birthday of ammaman symposium on poetry after nalapatan,inauguration by k.p.na.p and presided by payipra radhakrishnan who wanted my susruthasamhitha for sahityaacademy after hearing my speech,
The brontes,the respects paid to EMS and speech on roopabhadrathavadam.
Prabhashanam on vayala vasudevan pillai’s death of a bird.
Romantic imagination by c.m boura,diffeence between romantic and realist.Romantic sits alone with eyes turned inwards,realist sits in company ,among several people making lot of noise.
A visionary or darsanika has 5 eyes like 5faced shiva.one turned to stars and sun and sky,one to the outside just like any other person,one romantic eye,one to the prakrithy,prapancha,and the 5th to oneself,to the inner consciousness.He may see what the common man see or may not see that at all.But the darsana or vision of a visionary is never seen by a common man,and he lives in the sunrise of eternity as said by Blake.Romantist strongly feels that he ispart of the creation and creativity.
12.12.93 narayaneeyadinam bhakthythatwa and vedantha speech at guruvayur.chathusloki from brahmasoothra of sankara,speech on the karmayoga of vivekananda to NSS Womens polytechnic .Guruvayur utsavam speech on bhakthy based on balamani amma’s poetry. Study o f devindra kohli on kamaladas excerpts.march 6th sadsamgam at NSS Karayogam speech.
72 melakartharaaga-the name fromammaman’s diary in 1993 .
madhavikuttiyude varshangalkku mumpu,oru pathrapravarthakante ormakurippukal,poem nishkramanam. Chilappathikaram into Malayalam as poetry ,translation work.
1994 four diaries.
Sopanasamgheetham,lokantharangalil,gurupaadangalil,nakshathraroopa for meditation,infinity and the mind by rudy rucker,goddell ,mysticism and rationality,thirukkural.
Patheyam book 7 .
Dept of foreign languages influence of French literature on sociopolitical and cultural fields of kerala,notes on jesudas kutchery,sandranandam,on a adivasi mother who nostalgically remembers picking mahua flowers,a questionnaire of chilla magazine on sthree dharma answered,pumsavanam,yesudas conversations,
Excerpts from diary of nalapat,on music,literature and life.
1995.
ancient myths in modern poetry,focus on yeats,ezra pound eliot and auden.freud and jung on myths the psychoanalytical background,the way of the zen and aroopadhyanam,the romantic survival ,a study in poetic evolution,Marxist theories /structuralist Marxism.recent developments by eagleton,readeroriented theories,theoies of reader psychology,feminist criticism,political feminism,3 phases of gynocritics,as feminine,feminist and female phase,French feminist critical theory,laccan
communication and leadership,assessing quality and quantity of work done,the crest of the peacock,ambergriss,Phoenician religion and temple,mitotic cycle,agni as regular pyramid or tetrahedron,earth as cube or hexahedron,air as octahedron ,water as icosahedron,akasa as dodecahedron with a central pentagon.
Carlyle’s literature –lectures on heroes,greenhouse effect,roger penrose,the world’s oldest roads,jews of Israel,archives of environmental health,900 AD Chingelpet inscription,village assembly with executive committee rules and functions.Thodaas,
Sushumna suryachakradhyanam and avahanam of Krishna from sun to heart .by spanda becomes suvarnavarna from blue.thapoloka near sahasrara is yellow golden and when we visualize that colour our intellectual pursuits become better and unselfish.All the 7 swaras are contained in the golden colour.
On thirunava,volcano eruptions,earthquakes,kutch lipi,platonic solids,fullerene and garudane.
Response management in organizations,risk analysis in decisionmaking,crisis management,TQM,leadership problems,ohio model,traits to be possessed,guidelines,inertia between coordinates the theories of Einstein.
Souvarnam ,mandukyakarika,Wittgenstein,a study on Viennese positivism,visions of vedic poets,varieties of religious experiences,critical exposition of philosophy of leibniz,hegel and modern philosophy,hindu view of art,thaithareeyam,translation as discovery,literature,social consciousness and polity,reality knowledge of value,truth as cocorrespondence –existentialist view.concept of praamanya in navyanyaya school.Man as transcendence,jyothisha a comprison,mundakam and mandukyam,media and women a speech
1996
sandilyabhakthisoothra with swapneswarabhashya
poems .modern man in search of soul by jung.poetryand the sacred.mysticism a study in nature and development of man’s spiritual consciousness by evelyn underhill.
Huge of st victor three types of music.
1.prapanchasangheetham.
A.of the 5 elements number
Measure,dimension
Weight,gravity
B.planets position
Movement,velocity,momentum
Nature
C.Time
Day month year
Light darkness dark bright six rithu/ seasons
2.. Human music
1.Godmade vocal from the body as daiveeveena
2.from the athma spiritual also daiveeveena
3.merging of the two.cosmic and bioenergy music as neuroscience,devotional experiences,art and science of music
3.Instrumental music which is manmade.
We are not seeing truth ,we are hearing and listening to it.Aheavenly melody ,intolerably sweet ,all symbolic languages come and fill the mind of the mystic.mysticism joins hands with music and poetry.description of a spiritual experience is always symbolic.
Three thirsts of man.
1.we become travelers or pilgrims from the known to the unknown world
2.we become lovers when the thirst for heart to heart or athma to athma become predominant
3.we become yogins when thirst for perfection and internal purity predominates.
Poornatha or perfection is the most beautiful vision .The three types of mystics with these three thirsts or temperaments are
1.mystic quest
2.marriage of the soul
3.great work of spiritual alchemists who use the metallic and planetary images and language of alchemists.
Mystic is a totally mad being who had drunk the perfect beauty(soundaryalahari)of eternal light ,by turning his/her eye into the depths of ananthatha or endless wisdom.The one who is lucky to get a glimpse,or just a sip is his twin,the artist(musician,poet,dreamers,prophets)who lives half in dark and half in brightness.American psychologist Bucke has analysed this type of artists also in the group of cosmic consciousness.I am happy about that.Because,I am more of the first type sometimes drifting into the second as a poet.
Three types of visions
1.intellectual(spiritual)
2.imaginery
3.corporeal.
The first comes to us without our asking,as if some other power has planted it there.It is very intimate to us,and is not explainable.A formless presence.A formless akshara.A feeling that God is with us. This could be a symbolic form or a personal one.The lightriver of Dante is a symbolic dream of truth.It takes the visionary to a plane of eternity.This is not madness.In a meditative person it appear involuntarily,at the summit of a train of thought.Dhyana is the media of the mystic.It is to him/her what harmony is to a musician,form and colour to an artist,meter to a poet,-vehicle by which we can best apprehend the good and beautiful ,enter into communion with the real.
As a voice or a vision is the way in which his/her transcendental consciousness presents its discoveries to the surfacemind so contemplation is the way in which it makes those discoveries ,perceives the suprasensible;The growth of his/her effective genius.It is connected to our artistic growth.Growth is influenced by the vidya in turn.
These things are written .
Then the Tibetan book of the dead,psychological commentary by Jung,chandogyam,philosophy of the Tamil sidha as realized souls.
The panchamakara
Madya is the symbol of gnaana which makes you drunk with bliss
Matsya is the pranayama.
Mamsa is control of vak and senses
Mudra is the dhyanamudra of yogi
Maithuna is thanmayeebhava with paramarthasatha.
Pleasures of philosophy by will Durant.pp 387 deals with 4 stages of development in understanding religion.1.emotional belief
2.metaphysical bvelief3.absolut edisillusionment4.aesthetic understanding(the best)
A speech for All India astrological conference at Alwaye on 15.9.1996.
1997 diary
Leela the game of knowledge,the 72 squares which make up the field of the cosmic play and the musical scales.
Introduction to philosophy by Russell.PEANO .
Men and movements in American philosophy
The mind of sankaracharya
First principles by spencer
Scence and religion an interpretation of 2 communities (both are 3 fold and circular.
Ananda an experience
A comprehensive anthology of fundamental writings eastern mysticism
She was queen of Egypt
Surely you are joking ,mr Feynman.
On precision of equinox .carl sagan predictions
Freud and dreams ESP Research
Psi processes clairvoyance ,telepathy.
The faith and modern science
Esoteric Christianity
Village gods of south India
Ramayana traditions in asia
Philosophy and scientific cognition,
Esoteric Christianity
The problems of Newton.
1998.travel to Nepal
secret doctrine
dead towns and living men
speeches of lord curzon
theory of evolution
jesus lived in India.(This I read after settling at Ernakulam)
1999
I have compiled all my Krishna poems and collected in a single diary.
Nepal travelogue 6.2 1999.sandranandam
16.5.99 Pragna reiki inauguration at moovattupuzha
ammadevi cult
18.5.99 a dream vision.
Kannan paadalkal
M.P Veerendrakumar and C.K.Sujith kumar award at Nalapatan cultural society speech
Vishnusahasranaamam
Oct 10th Mammiyur devaswom sangheetholsavan arambham
MSS Meera padalkal
72 melakartha and naagakkettu.
I have just enumerated the stream of consciousness in 30 years(1969-1999).How my mind had been concentrated on things which are not mundane for such a long time,so that I cant sometimes understand the ordinary loukika talks.That doesn’t touch me much.Just superficial hearing only.The growth is something like an inward growth ,and then viewing the outside world from within .A figure of 8 pattern of vision.A witness only ,not touched by the external world .In 1999 I realized with wonder that I had been prepared for a realization from childhood through my repetive dream visions ,to do something which even I didn’t know.A sort of astronomical synchronicity.This niyoga is around vridhachala and its memory.
The temple at vridhachala has only 72 karana unlike other temples which have 108 .
Leela (gnan chowpad has )72 cubes
360 degree of brahmanda is 72X 5 or a panchamukha ,pentagon ,the golden proportion of thripurasundari.(panchanan or shiva,simha or vahana of Durga)It is the most perfect aesthetic model of beauty.
72 Melakartha raga I FIRS T CAME ACROSS IN AMMAMAN’S DIARY.
72000 madhunadi,72000 jeevanadi,72 melakartha,all come and superimpose in my mind’s canvas and when I am right in the middle of finding out the place of me in this mandala of 72,yesudas comes into my life .The right person to stimulate the musical 72 melakartha and the music therapy thoughts dormant in my interdisciplinary mind.God’s moves are always in the correct time,correct place,Ibelieve.The recognition of my Vridhachala dream ,not only as a past memory of a bygone life,but also as a predictive dream for my life to evolve into,suddenly dawns in me.After all ,the past and future always merge in present for an advaithic mind.No divisions for time in thrikaalagna mind.So past and future merged in my present as an eternal spacetime and revelations flooded my mind as never before.the diary from 2000 to 2007(now)shows the difference in pattern very well.
The journey has completed a full circle from Ammaman’s death and vision of vridhachala,to series of interdisciplinary studies keeping me away from mundane influences ,and then seeing ammaman’s diary with the term melakartharaaga and the interconnectedness of that number with every other thing I had learned and to music .Then vision and aquaintance and communication with a musical genius and manasaguru(The unexpected happened as if from Heaven a star dropped in front) which gives an intuitive revival of all experiences and integrative summing up,for recognition of my niyoga and role in life,though late.Better late than never!!!Dreams come from heaven.My life story has taught me that.
With this I have given a glimpse of the curios I have collected and kept in the corridors of my personal mental,intellectual timespan and this would help you as my readers to assess what type of a mind/intellect I have and probably what you can expect from my writings too.It is an introduction to the larger corridors of time (impersonal)that we are passing in this sojourn .We are passing from the personal timespace to impersonal timespace and the corridors of that broader span is in direct continuity with my personal narrower biological limited timespace just as the cosmos is related to a paramaanu forever in a nitya relationship.
(Summing up the stream of consciousness as diary from 1969-1999)
When I wrote Patheyam,1my spiritual autobiography,someone asked,Arent the dreams you describe an illusionary world? That is not the real world.Where should I separate illusion and reality?I always wonder.Johannes Kepler 2dreamt that he has seen the clock of heavens and that he was traveling to the moon.And he really created those as science,not as dream.His dream became science for the next generation.Kekule 3dreamed of two intertwining serpents devouvouring the tail of the other,and he found out the 6 carbon ring of Benzene from that dream.Benzene ring is science and the dream which gave birth to it is not science.What is that logic,I wonder!
Varahamihira 4talks about the illusion of passage of time.And of space.Curt Godell5 said about it:Illusion of passage of time arise from confusing the real and the given.We think of occupying different realities.In fact there is only one reality.And Einstein6 carried the torch ahead.
When I sit down and try to organize my old diaries and copy some excerpts on to my computer,I remember these.A diary is a running commentary ,of your stream of consciousness over a long period of time.Disordered,it may seem,but on second check,a perfectly ordered rhythm is in it.The passage through the corridors of time of a limited individual life!!
My chronological age is 61.But my stream of consciousness goes back to millions and millions of years back.And create a new world from that for thhe new world of love and peace to emerge.My dreams and my streams of consciousness follow a cosmic calendar,I find with wonder from my old diaries.
In a cosmic calender one day is 40 million years!
One second is 500 years.
Every cosmic minute is 30000 years.
Converting that to degree,
10= 60’=180 0000 years
1 month(30 0)=54 00000 years
120 0(4 months)21600000 years
240 0 ,0r 8 months =43200000 years
Therefore 12 months or the circle of 360 0 is 64800000 years ,the energy number of Einstein.And this cosmic calendar was known to the Indian astronomer right from vedic times.Not the written vedic times,but the oral veda,the nomadic cattlerearing and early settling periods ,when mathematics was with just 3 symbols,a small line or stick,a dot(the decimal or the Bhadram) ,and a zero(open cowrie shell).The power notation of dasamsa was invented right back in the beginning of civilization in India,by a unknown ancestor who took a stick ,a bhadram and a cowrie and calculated the very big numbers of the yuga and the kalpa.Surprising.But there are many evidences for this .
The dream when in a single tiny moment ,time,energy and space become one with the dravya of our body giving us unusual insight into a bygone past and a passion to create a future of Oneness to the entire world(Advaitha)is my only reality.And for creating those beautiful dreams ,Indian classical and light music has been my friends/or aides.When I review my life at the age of 60 I find only this reality.All the other experiences were just illusions.And ,then I remember the words of Krishna in the Gita,that a yogi is awake when others are asleep and asleep when others are awake.That is absolutely true.What is real for a Advaithin may be Greek and Latin for others.And what is real for them is just an illusionary world for the Advaithin.
The truth of an astronomer is both the dream and reality of the ancient rishi.The essence of all the living and nonliving things,of all the civilizations and languages,sciences and arts consolidated as the rasa experience of soundaryalahari in a split second in one’s consciousness as if in a mirror ,in a dreamy mirror.They come to us in our deep sleep as visions,because that is the only natural state when we forget our sense experiences and are totally transcendental.We are then beyond the limitations of our socalled limited personality/ego and the limited experiences of this world.The history of mankind as we know it today is only a few last seconds in a cosmic calendar of mahakalpa and yuga.This small day-to-day life which we think as real is not the real.It is something beyond this.
For a soul to evolve fully the environment is selected by an unknown power.We don’t choose our parents .The parents,the home,the spacetime for the event (birth)is beyond our free will.This then determine our education and the possibility of wisdom we aquire.We are given the appropriate experiences,friendships,acquaintances at the correct moment so that we evolve fully.We don’t have free will on that too.
The poetic and logical truth or reality (reality of jagrad and swapna)are the function of the brain.The right and left hemispheres have a perfect job division.My brain has to be a combination of both.I cant deny my right brain’s existence.I cant deny the dream experiences as illusion,because that too is the experience of my own brain.Dreams are like flowers to a plant,natural to human mind.We cant deny them as illusory.They are more real than what we call real.It is a neverending fountain of my cognitive and creative power.The dream analysis of clinical psychiatry after 7Freud was concerned with dreams and imaginations of a diseased brain.The dreams and imageries of a perfectly healthy mind was not studied by them .The mind of a yogi,(a true yogi )is calm and from it creation and cognition arise as flowers,fruits and series of generations of thought for the next generation from the orderly synchronized past and present.And that part is unknown to doctors concerned with only the thoughts of a diseased mind immersed in selfish or mundane thought alone.The dream of a 8Ramanujan (of Namakkal Paradevatha)resulted in his creativity or rediscovery of magical squares.
At first ,in childhood I thought these dreams are from a past life,unknown to me altogether.But towards the end of my life,Iwonder,where my dreams predictive of my future too?Or is the past and the future the same point for a present moment?The lack of division into timespace in advaithic mind makes one wonder that way.All people see dreams,whether man or woman,whichever religion,caste ,creed or socioeconomic strata.No bar for age or language or spacetime for a dream.We touch not only the subconscious but also the superconscious planes in a dreamvision.When we see the same symbol repeatedly in an orderly rhythm,from childhood,that has to be considered not as an ordinary dream but a predictive or a rediscovery dream .Dreams are universal symbols since they recur in all people irrespective of any difference in spacetime or other attributes mentioned above.
There is a symbol of Dreamy prediction in Bible.That of9 Ezekiel.Ezekiel on the 30th ruling year.4th month,5th day saw the heaven’s door open and God appear.There was a northern hurricane,a bright firy envelope ,and in that cosmic dance of nature he saw a human form with 4 faces ,4 wings,and 4 such forms appeared.All had hoofs,and bright golden colour.The faces were lion,Garuda,Rishabha,and Man.Then he saw a light like lightening(in Veda soudaminisamaprabha)and the voice of God(as thunder)Whether in India or abroad,the dreams of celestial beings are seen as a vyuha ,usually of 4 or 8.Krishna,Durga,Vishnu,Rama,Sanaka and his brothers,Angels ,evangelists ,all are in vyuha,never alone.In the Suvishesha of Mark,which starts with the white pigeon of peace and th e healing power of prophet,there is the symbol of lion.
So it is quiet natural for me to have dreamed of a raasichakra in the middle of which the Devi stood,it was also perfectly natural to visualize the 4 lionesses who delivered 4 kitten.10.The dream just show that I am also destined to see the cosmic proportions and to talk on world peace and harmony.And for healing powers of music .What Ezekiel saw was ,the 4 cosmic directions of rishabha(with pleides or karthika in it),simha (with Magha and the saptharshi in it),
Garuda with a serpent (just opposite to rishabharasi is the vrischika with sarpamasthakam or Anuradha and the Jyeshta or balarama as Anantha naag)and the Aquaruius (man)or Hamsa (paramahansa)with Agastya and Vasishta opposite to that.These 4 points are 90 degree apart from each other and travel as a vyuha onlyThe cosmic form like this is seen by prehistoric men and women as dreamvisions.It is the KA of Brahmi,the chithrakoota of the serpent worshippers of India (The Bharadwaja group)and is the symbol of cosmic consciousness.The golden rectangle of the viswaroopa.
We know the growth of the body .It is visible.But our mind also grows.It is an invisible process.If it does not grow ,we become stunted.When a tree become old enough it produce flowers and fruits in appropriate rithu(season)natural to it.The dreams we see are like that.The end of a dream is when it is fulfilled.(or it become the fruit).Here the ancients and the modern dream analysts differ.
My dream is nature of my mind.If I am seeing Gayathri or Vishnu or whatever ,in my dream that is my nature.Or the rithupushpa my Atma creates on my mind.It has something to tell me.To teach me.As a human being,when a doctor listens to dreams of a client ,he should try to understand them in this way,not as mere illusions of a mad mind.Musical imagery in music therapy is used for this ,in my programmes.I would like to see the visions of the other world,the near death experiences etc of the clients to be seen as parts of human consciousness ,and not as the mad illusions.
In a similie of a plant with a blooming flower which turns to fruit,there is naturality,beauty ,fertility symbol and the concept of revival(punarjani),the nectar of eternity and Jung was able to see this ,unlike his predecessor Freud.The fertility of a plant is not sin.But a natural phenomenon for next generations to exist.A continuity of geneology .Of human race.That is a dharma,a duty ,and a beautiful experience for the rishi of India.And for all tribal cultures of the world and they saw it as a divine dream,as Ezekiel also did.The symbol of snake ,Goddess ,of Rasichakra as gates of heaven,swans,and other animals were interpreted in this way.
A rectangle or square with 4 sides,a quadrata divided into 4,a square within a circle,a mandala of Rasichakra,or squaring of the circle are symbol of individuation according to Jung’s dream experience.The total personality development is indicated by 4 cardinal points.The 4 and the circle enclose the whole.11Jung calls it the fourfold NIRDWANDWA(a Sanskrit word meaning not a second,or ONE ONLY)free from any opposites.Fantasies and dreams of a personal character may be explained by individual anamnesic but fantasies and dreams of an impersonal character cannot be reduced to experience of a single individual past,and are collective inherited memories or structural elements of human psyche.An autochthonous revivalof such memories as visions can happen in dreams in lucid states ,in yogic visions in reveries etc.The snake symbol or leminiscate12 ,a favourite symbol of collective psychic substratum 13which is localized anatomically in the subcortical centers ,cerebellum,spinal cord which constitute the snake according to Jung and kundalini according to eastern yogins (snake)are seen as early as Hippolytus ,Eleuchos 4.It is said that snake dreams occur when the conscious mind deviates from its instructional basis.And it has nothing connected to sin or sex.The fact is,symbols are the same,universal ones ,and it is the interpretor who interprets them as sin or sex whoshould be studied for the behaviour.The one who interprets it as a divine thing ,or a natural thing is safe.The one who interprets it as something bad or unnatural has something of that quality lurking inside as subconscious guilt feel.
I have seen snakes in dream only twice and those two occasions were good for me and not bad.And it had something to relate to my inner growth .My revered musical Guru K.J.Yesudas also had experience of three golden snakes in one of his dreams and it did not bring illluck to him either.
They were from heaven or may be from this beautiful earth,never from hell or from guilt conscience.The snakeshrine and its symbols in my ancestral house had always been auspicious to me in my life.
My birthstar
I was born when the sun is in Mesha (Aries)and the nakshathra or asterism of the moon in Punarvasu inMithun arasi on May 6th.From my childhood I had been the devotee of Krishna (Vishnu )as Guruvayurappan.When I learned the Dhyanaroopa of Vishnu (in my middle age)I was surprised to note that,In punarvasu star,the dhyana of Vishnu is as the long thin fingers playing the flute or the veena The poojadravya for Vishnu in this star is silk dress and long gourd(padavalangai which resembles long thin fingers of artistic people)Then I read Vamanapurana.It says if you are meditating on Shiva in the rasichakra,in Punarvasu in Mithuna meditate on him as siva and sakthy,preparing to merge with each other,,sitting on a cot together,They have musical instruments like veena in their arms.Are enjoying music together with musicians,dancers and shilpi(architects)around.They are traveling in leelagriha(playhouses)and Viharabhoomi together.This I read only in 2002.
My love for music and for Vishnu was written in my star ,when or may be before I was born .Such discoveries occur all on a sudden when you are least expecting them.If you are writing a diary you can analyse your stream of consciousness,the unexpected things happening in a regular order on which you have no control.
The first attempt of my diary writing was in 1969,as a student ,in my 23rd year.The mind was in a state of musical nirvana of love and was very immature at that stage,I can see when I read and look back at that diary.
Then there is a long silence of 7 years and diary writing resumes in 1976.(at age of 30)That was just after reading the 19 diaries given to me by my aunt of her uncle ,the poet –philosopher Narayanamenon.And I write in that diary.’A blow .A strong blow in life brings a thoughtful person to the infinite.The life is not for immersing in luxuries,in selfish motives.It is a lesson to a learned .Sorrow and pleasure follow each other.Then a quote from Swethaswetharaupanishad on the two suparnas.Then I state ,From now onwards I am into a permanent Tapas,a integration of karma,gnana and bhakthy.In my mind’s thriveni.In my practice of this I should never fail.I wont fail.Sitting in the vatmeeka of samsara,the long tapasya of philosophy makes me pure.It is because there are sorrows around me,that I am hearing that divine voice always within ,calling me for action,I have written in that diary(The internment experiences in the hospital in 1969 and suicide of a housesurgeon in 1975 December had prompted these )..
May 1976.An entry goes:The concept of heaven changes with age.While I was a kid,my heaven was a room full of icecream,Cadburys and toys.Then it became a beautiful garden of sweet smells and colours.Where beautiful gandharvas and Apsaras play around singing,smiling,dancing.Then there had always been a small baby KRISHNA with a peacock feather and a flute .The concept of heaven is actually the state of our mind in particular spacetime.
I had excerpts from Das capital and vivekanadasahitya copied in this diary.The quote of Marx”The prescription of superstitions which appear cruel to individuals ,are conservative for the community,and the preservation of the labouring cattle secures the power of cultivation and the sources of future life and wealth.’He says this about the protection of the cow in India.For a agricultural economy ,cattle which give labour as well as manure ,and energy (gober)to the rural people has to be considered as power and should be protected.If not,the agriculture suffers.I felt that is a good point of observation he made.When the nationalist movement took the symbol of the two oxen with a plough ,this social message was there,but unfortunately it is no more with us.The dharma,humane felings,economy of a agricultural land all depended on cattle and Krishna the cowherdboy ,the protector of cattle become a sociopolitical symbol ,with his brother carrying a plough for irrigation with yamuna canalwater.
In November the stream of consciousness views the deforestation for exploitation,and the habit of planting Ucalyptus which is not good for rootsoil,and a dream of Advaithic nation with no such exploitation of nature .The economy should be equal to all.Then there is a short article written for Grihalaxmi weekly ,written as per request of the then editor.
There are two diaries in 1977.One deals with immunopathology,neuroendocrine functions and is purely medical.The other deals with Katha Upanishad and the Gita and also quotes from National parent teacher (April 1955)an American journal.It says:’Modern education is that mysterious process whereby information passes from the lecture notes of the Professor,through the fountain pen of the student into his notebook,without passing through the minds of either”.
I used to say these satirical words about the routine type of lectures ,in my lecture clases,to enforce that our lectures and learning process should not be like that.And in one of the college magazines one of my students(Dr T.P.Nazer)quoted this as said by a madam wearing a large kumkum on her forehead looking like a Brahmin lady.And that created a small tempest in the teapot of Pathology department where at that time there was only one Brahmin lady who was vehemently opposing that she has never said that and all others wondering who might have said that!
Then comes a nostalgic page.The 5th birthday of my son.He had given a picture of Christ and sweets to his sister in convent school and she had in return given a beautiful bouquet of flowers.I could see the dry petals of those flowers in my diary page with a short comment from me:When he is grown up and I am no more,he might one day see these a s a remembrance of his childhood days and of his loving mother.”
Then there come quotes from Arshagnana,message of Upanishads,secret doctrine of Blavatsky,in between some easy recipe for my kitchen,and several songs written down in haste.that year I had the first Gayathri darsan but I didnt write it down,because I thought that was just an illusion I had because of my tired brain.I had the secret doctrine of Madame Blavatsky from year 1975 onwards with me and I remember that it was always on my granduncles desk and later on I read that this book had always been on the desk of Einstein (from a right up in the Hindu on Adyar library on 19.June 2008 only ,I knew this).
By 1978,I can see that the silly girl of 1969 has become a mature person.Vivakanada,Leadership and crisis(Robert Lhamblein )international relations,Plato’s republic were in the reading list .There are several film songs .Then a quote saying that for an intelligent woman the best.relationship is the good companion pattern.Because it is for the strong est initiative,intelligent persons.
Cattel’s theorem,how group discussions should be used for decisionmaking,and problem solving (professional)social communication and its importance come in the year 1978.The phases of group problem solving and its awareness had helped me a lot in my later life as a teacher,pathologist ,administrator,and researcher.(When I write this ,I have resigned fromA mritha hospital for a special administrative reason.It is 4th and 5th stage of a group problem solving activity which no one knows.But I know what I am doing .For a valuebased educational dream ,I had to set an example by that.)
Diary 1979.
In the pages of it I fished out an old letter sent by Soolapaniwarrier to Bhanu.It is written on 14.12.79.He says not to worry about my health but to think about his health .And he says according to Abhilash’s horoscope the mother has a healthy,long life and a very good future life.He says he has my birthcahart with him and that the fractures etc might have occurred several times before 11 years (fall etc)and will be naturally over with sukra apaharam and no need to do any parihara for that.Then he says he remembers a tiny face of mine which he had seen long back in Nalapat.And the divine light of my granduncle’s face and his help and educative talks which made him what he is,he can never forget and they are his vedavakya for life.
Then comes vivekanada,Socrates,social psychology,excerpts from kuran,geetharahasya,sriramakrishnavachanamritha,biography of Marx,Gandhism,socialism and the concept of the 3 gayathridarsan in a row.Which had given me a shock as well as a calm and peace not known before.By 10 years (from 1969)my love has become one for the entire universe!!I can go through that now by just reading through the pages of my streams of consciousness in these diaries!! Relive those moments of growth!
The next decade 1980-1989
There are 4 diaries in 1980
1.The kerala Govt diary:A Malayalam version pf pathology was attempted at this stage.some references in Pathology,Govardhanagiridhara of NarayanaTheerthar.
The data collected for an astrological research on cancer and other diseases,an opinion about the literary criticism discussion that was being published in Mathrubhoomi.
There were many who were criticizing destructively The discussions should be impersonal.Should not cross barriers to the personal level.
2.Manorama diary :Amarakosam,Rusel,Jungian psychology,sex education,communism and Christianity,the matter prepared for AIR Calicut on 22.1.80 on valuebased education.
The syllabus committee of Sidharthasankar Ray,public philosophy of Walter Whitman,difference between a voter and a citizen,public interests,unbalanced budgets,communist manifesto and Jacobites dogmas,educational psychology ,how to improve and increase the selfconfidence of the people,and for what ,how to do selfanalysis and find out our own weaknesses and rectify them.
3.Another Manorama diary:How to develop ethical sense in children?Rigveda,eduation,the Lumbini script (Brahmi)numismatics.Has a woman the strength to face difficulties?The topic discussion in AIR (19.9.80)Gayathri,astrology,Meteors(Fedyensky)Narayanatharvasiropanishad,Albert Camus and a few songs(film)
4.LIC Diary:My pleasures,my motto,my aim,my creed,religion and caste/in one page.The importance of joboriented education,wholistic education,planets,history,astrology,difference between samadhi and hypnotism,thaoism,Mithraeism,yogasidhi and realization of God.
In December 1980 following these streams f consciousness we decided to take Brahmacharya from Kanyakumari .Within a week ,the fishermen in the sea around kanyakumari got a sivalinga from the sea.
1981.
Astrology.A radioprogramme on 3.3.81(why we are unable to prevent cruelties to women by the law alone?)and seminar on Education for the future India(22.2.1981).How is our economy destroyed by the negative type of strikes?History.Skylark(shelley’s poem)Bharatheeyadarsanam,sadacharasasthram,sreechakram,Astronomical riddles in Mahabharatha,Home sweet home,a programme on AIR (October 6)
1982.There is a letter written by Valiyamma(Balamani amma)within the pages of this diary.And a paper cutting saying:”The practice of unalloyed devotion to the Lord b y developing a distaste for any sense-pleasure and by reveting the mind on Him through discipline will enable an aspirant to capture the form of God and enshrine Him in his heart.Cultivating extreme repugnance to worldly objects ,listening to the narratives of the sports of God,looking after the welfare of all beings ,abstaining from exploitation of others,bearing no illwill towards anyone,eschewing the company of nonbelievers of God,observing strict celibacy,refraining from gossip,resorting to meditation in solitude,remaining friendly and adopting austerity in food habits are some of the steps to attain God.Having gone through joys and sorrows,a person,who has thus controlled his mind,will develop detachment .He will gradually withdraw himself from the world.
The mystic cosmic poetry of shelley and Christian Morgenstern ,a direction to see pages 101-108 of Ammaman’s diary for information on classical music of India,speed of sound333/sec,a dispute on Autopsy in the department,a few lines from bible .
March 31 .1982.A writing on sreenivasaramanujam’s magical squares .And then how I could relate it to my Gayathri darsan,astronomy,Ezekiel and his vision,Ayurveda,Duncan’s according to the evidence,binary systems,sahasraaram,Adityahridayam,diary of Ammaman,music,Pythagorus and Arabian music,sreechakra,suryasavithry,leelavathy of Bhaskaracharya,Fibonacci,sound waves.
80-100 decibel decrease audition
100-120-ear aches
140-160 neurosis,psychosis
over 160 even coma and death
over 90 decibels is responsible for various diseases.over 20000 Hz ear cannot receive the waves which are ultrasonic.(a graph of this)If foetus subjected to more tha n80 decibels the child will be small and even congenital anomalies can occur.
1985.manorama diary,
The utpathykrama.On Amyoppu,the dream about janaki Amma,Bhanu,The worlds lost mysteries,
1985 unisan diary:The issue register of books of Abhilash,TV Time table,,cosmos excerpts from Carl sagan show.
1986.two diaries.
1.The music written for vasanthy on saibaba,
sankaracharya,the ekathmabharathasilpi,astrophysics,origin of moon (theories)astronomical calculations,Ptolemy,T.O.Map,preliterate societies and their culture,The challenge of teaching,the vansa of Mercury,The kalasarpayoga of Oct 30th.
Koutilya,the sacrificial hall ,Rober t Garisto and Newton,cosmic order(ritham)
Nabu chandasar ,Budha and Arabic script for Nabi
Sakthipeetham,Andal,History,Rgveda.
2.Unisan diary.Thirupathy mahotsava,(brahmotsava)chinese language,rain in North Arcot district from 1979-86,diary of Abhimon,notes for speeches,Brahmanalakshana,secrets of pyramids,mysteries and wonders from all over the world.
1987:Astronomical calculations,rigveda,science for everyone,how we can see what we see,(V.Denmidov).The boundary of preconscious ,purpose of calendar,discussion on arshagnana,(7.10.87)origin of terms,a new epoch,letter of kala .edappally on 6.5.97 and its reply.
Dec 10.89.article of sujatha and reply to it.The article ,Newton and Howard gardners Frames of Mind.(read on May 1987)The parts about musical intelligence is copied in full,because that was very interesting and I wanted to learn about it ,through the musical intelligence of contemporary singer yesudas,.Numismatics and psychology.
1988.Sriramachakra,pascals law,chandas,science of music,astronomical laws,difference of opinion with Dr Raaman ,time of vararuchi,his vakyam,brihadaranyaka guruparampara,9 jewels,29 vyasa,secret doctrine,susruthasamhitha,festivals of Singapore and Indonesia,their languages,research on women participation in academic chairs of calicut med college,expanding role of women in sciences.
1989.Susruthasanhitha,hindu mythology,and religion by John Da wson.
(In this decade came a few novels.amrithajyothi and panchasidhanthika from my pen and I took my MD in pathology too.And Abhilash completed his school education and entered college.)
Th e next decade is 1990-2000
There are 2 diaries in 1990.One deals with the cultural history of kerala and the other is part 3 of patheyam,the official part of my biography.Regarding pathology,research,administration and so on.
1991 there are 5 diaries,the first two are part 5 and 4 of biography.Also the menu for Bhanu,kuran,secret doctrine about karthika or pleides,the relation of absoo or the abyss of learning and the naaga,synopsis for book naagapanchamam,and a talk for August 15th ,on the gains of 50 years of independence and what we should do for further development,religion and political conflicts in south asia,pavangal,etc .
Another diary is excerpts from new york academy of sciences on nature of native language acquisition,and foreign language acquisition..Psychic phenomenon,precognition,psychokinesis,the meaning of psi,pk and methods of learning and teaching techniques ,the true aim of education,a useful change in behaviour,planning strategies to solve problems,vedanthasuthra with sribhashya of ramanuja,yagna in taithireeyasamhitha
.Then the next diary with historical studies and articles ,on lakshmanadesikendra,author of saradathilaka,jaipur observatory and instruments used in it,the contribution of India to archeological research,the magic worldof pyramids,sound,language and numbers,the mythology of south and central America,scythians,shefa who visited Solomon ,the chera,chola,pandya and mooshakavansa history.
Another one contains susruthasamhitha,saradthilaka excerpts,and in one of them how monkeys are given artificial nirvana by an electronic brain experiment .a button is pressed so that 3 times/sec for 18 hrs or 194400 times .In amygdala are the memories of fear.Basal ganglion has memories of habits /physical skills.Hippocampus is seat of memory.Ascending reticular activating system from lower one third of brainstem to posterior hypothalamus as seat of consciousness.
The making of a poet-seamus Heaney ,wb yeats,speech for Annie Besant memorial lecture,speech for Nalapatan award for Leelavathy about her book on archetypes,A vision of wb yeats, when allplanets join in punarvasu in karkitaka,the fire of the heavens,and universe returns to its seed position.Uthradam in utharayanabindu,is watery lunar,by nature and have love and discord with fire,both.They dominate in turn,lovemaking all the things into one,advaitha,and when they are indiscord every thing in the world separate and this opposite states go on endlessly repeating.
Then two papercuttings on yesudas.
Concepts of literature.myth and literature.
How parents can help in developing overall personality of children –a speech for st michels school calicut
Oriental elements in 19th century romantic poetry
Mudra a study of ujjainy by onv.vachanamritham for AIR,Bhakthilakshanam,J.Krishnamurthy and the nameless experience by rohit mehta,problems in ahmes papyrus,kumaon pictures,saraswathy chowky,dhooli chouki,numismatics.
Next diary with selected poems and a symbol of 5 pointed star,the sweetness of nivedya about valiyamma’s poems,a new model of universe by pd ouspensky,a preface to wordsworth,the prelude his poetic biography, That one is interesting.
Wordsworth observes that our memories are selective and protects us from falling into the abyss of despair.This renewal happens when our imagination and mind are in control.These moments happen in childhood itself.And the memory lingers in old age even,protecting us.He had it at the age of 5-6Ihad at the age of 7-8.
Experience of Wordsworth:At the age of 5,while he was riding a horse ,he was gripped by a fear,and a vision helped himout of that fear.The vision was of a turf,a pool,a beacon and a woman.Years after when he fell in love,he saw the same place and vision –he wandered there youth’s golden gleam is the word used.The greatness of man is created out of childhood experiences and we contribute ourselves something to the mere impressions.The childhood experiences were the sources of his creative power,and it was like a door suddenly opened and the memory of it lingered in later life (Pratyabhigna of Indian)He says The days goneby come back upon me from the dawn almost of life which signify the memory of past life.’
The perspectives in philosophy and science religion and art by I.C Philosophical research follows.The last of the 1992 diaries is on administration,management,education,pleides and the kabirim.nagapanchamam.
1993has 3 diaries.one starts with coleridge,and poems to shiva by indira viswanatha Peterson.in memorium of Tennyson and ammaman’s kannuneerthulli comparison,lunar craters,nidanasthanam or pathology in susruthasamhitha,sandranandam,a note for kashaya of bhanu.
The second one a speech for advocates association on love,a speech on how to make blood donation safe ,AIR Vachanamritham ,107th birthday of ammaman symposium on poetry after nalapatan,inauguration by k.p.na.p and presided by payipra radhakrishnan who wanted my susruthasamhitha for sahityaacademy after hearing my speech,
The brontes,the respects paid to EMS and speech on roopabhadrathavadam.
Prabhashanam on vayala vasudevan pillai’s death of a bird.
Romantic imagination by c.m boura,diffeence between romantic and realist.Romantic sits alone with eyes turned inwards,realist sits in company ,among several people making lot of noise.
A visionary or darsanika has 5 eyes like 5faced shiva.one turned to stars and sun and sky,one to the outside just like any other person,one romantic eye,one to the prakrithy,prapancha,and the 5th to oneself,to the inner consciousness.He may see what the common man see or may not see that at all.But the darsana or vision of a visionary is never seen by a common man,and he lives in the sunrise of eternity as said by Blake.Romantist strongly feels that he ispart of the creation and creativity.
12.12.93 narayaneeyadinam bhakthythatwa and vedantha speech at guruvayur.chathusloki from brahmasoothra of sankara,speech on the karmayoga of vivekananda to NSS Womens polytechnic .Guruvayur utsavam speech on bhakthy based on balamani amma’s poetry. Study o f devindra kohli on kamaladas excerpts.march 6th sadsamgam at NSS Karayogam speech.
72 melakartharaaga-the name fromammaman’s diary in 1993 .
madhavikuttiyude varshangalkku mumpu,oru pathrapravarthakante ormakurippukal,poem nishkramanam. Chilappathikaram into Malayalam as poetry ,translation work.
1994 four diaries.
Sopanasamgheetham,lokantharangalil,gurupaadangalil,nakshathraroopa for meditation,infinity and the mind by rudy rucker,goddell ,mysticism and rationality,thirukkural.
Patheyam book 7 .
Dept of foreign languages influence of French literature on sociopolitical and cultural fields of kerala,notes on jesudas kutchery,sandranandam,on a adivasi mother who nostalgically remembers picking mahua flowers,a questionnaire of chilla magazine on sthree dharma answered,pumsavanam,yesudas conversations,
Excerpts from diary of nalapat,on music,literature and life.
1995.
ancient myths in modern poetry,focus on yeats,ezra pound eliot and auden.freud and jung on myths the psychoanalytical background,the way of the zen and aroopadhyanam,the romantic survival ,a study in poetic evolution,Marxist theories /structuralist Marxism.recent developments by eagleton,readeroriented theories,theoies of reader psychology,feminist criticism,political feminism,3 phases of gynocritics,as feminine,feminist and female phase,French feminist critical theory,laccan
communication and leadership,assessing quality and quantity of work done,the crest of the peacock,ambergriss,Phoenician religion and temple,mitotic cycle,agni as regular pyramid or tetrahedron,earth as cube or hexahedron,air as octahedron ,water as icosahedron,akasa as dodecahedron with a central pentagon.
Carlyle’s literature –lectures on heroes,greenhouse effect,roger penrose,the world’s oldest roads,jews of Israel,archives of environmental health,900 AD Chingelpet inscription,village assembly with executive committee rules and functions.Thodaas,
Sushumna suryachakradhyanam and avahanam of Krishna from sun to heart .by spanda becomes suvarnavarna from blue.thapoloka near sahasrara is yellow golden and when we visualize that colour our intellectual pursuits become better and unselfish.All the 7 swaras are contained in the golden colour.
On thirunava,volcano eruptions,earthquakes,kutch lipi,platonic solids,fullerene and garudane.
Response management in organizations,risk analysis in decisionmaking,crisis management,TQM,leadership problems,ohio model,traits to be possessed,guidelines,inertia between coordinates the theories of Einstein.
Souvarnam ,mandukyakarika,Wittgenstein,a study on Viennese positivism,visions of vedic poets,varieties of religious experiences,critical exposition of philosophy of leibniz,hegel and modern philosophy,hindu view of art,thaithareeyam,translation as discovery,literature,social consciousness and polity,reality knowledge of value,truth as cocorrespondence –existentialist view.concept of praamanya in navyanyaya school.Man as transcendence,jyothisha a comprison,mundakam and mandukyam,media and women a speech
1996
sandilyabhakthisoothra with swapneswarabhashya
poems .modern man in search of soul by jung.poetryand the sacred.mysticism a study in nature and development of man’s spiritual consciousness by evelyn underhill.
Huge of st victor three types of music.
1.prapanchasangheetham.
A.of the 5 elements number
Measure,dimension
Weight,gravity
B.planets position
Movement,velocity,momentum
Nature
C.Time
Day month year
Light darkness dark bright six rithu/ seasons
2.. Human music
1.Godmade vocal from the body as daiveeveena
2.from the athma spiritual also daiveeveena
3.merging of the two.cosmic and bioenergy music as neuroscience,devotional experiences,art and science of music
3.Instrumental music which is manmade.
We are not seeing truth ,we are hearing and listening to it.Aheavenly melody ,intolerably sweet ,all symbolic languages come and fill the mind of the mystic.mysticism joins hands with music and poetry.description of a spiritual experience is always symbolic.
Three thirsts of man.
1.we become travelers or pilgrims from the known to the unknown world
2.we become lovers when the thirst for heart to heart or athma to athma become predominant
3.we become yogins when thirst for perfection and internal purity predominates.
Poornatha or perfection is the most beautiful vision .The three types of mystics with these three thirsts or temperaments are
1.mystic quest
2.marriage of the soul
3.great work of spiritual alchemists who use the metallic and planetary images and language of alchemists.
Mystic is a totally mad being who had drunk the perfect beauty(soundaryalahari)of eternal light ,by turning his/her eye into the depths of ananthatha or endless wisdom.The one who is lucky to get a glimpse,or just a sip is his twin,the artist(musician,poet,dreamers,prophets)who lives half in dark and half in brightness.American psychologist Bucke has analysed this type of artists also in the group of cosmic consciousness.I am happy about that.Because,I am more of the first type sometimes drifting into the second as a poet.
Three types of visions
1.intellectual(spiritual)
2.imaginery
3.corporeal.
The first comes to us without our asking,as if some other power has planted it there.It is very intimate to us,and is not explainable.A formless presence.A formless akshara.A feeling that God is with us. This could be a symbolic form or a personal one.The lightriver of Dante is a symbolic dream of truth.It takes the visionary to a plane of eternity.This is not madness.In a meditative person it appear involuntarily,at the summit of a train of thought.Dhyana is the media of the mystic.It is to him/her what harmony is to a musician,form and colour to an artist,meter to a poet,-vehicle by which we can best apprehend the good and beautiful ,enter into communion with the real.
As a voice or a vision is the way in which his/her transcendental consciousness presents its discoveries to the surfacemind so contemplation is the way in which it makes those discoveries ,perceives the suprasensible;The growth of his/her effective genius.It is connected to our artistic growth.Growth is influenced by the vidya in turn.
These things are written .
Then the Tibetan book of the dead,psychological commentary by Jung,chandogyam,philosophy of the Tamil sidha as realized souls.
The panchamakara
Madya is the symbol of gnaana which makes you drunk with bliss
Matsya is the pranayama.
Mamsa is control of vak and senses
Mudra is the dhyanamudra of yogi
Maithuna is thanmayeebhava with paramarthasatha.
Pleasures of philosophy by will Durant.pp 387 deals with 4 stages of development in understanding religion.1.emotional belief
2.metaphysical bvelief3.absolut edisillusionment4.aesthetic understanding(the best)
A speech for All India astrological conference at Alwaye on 15.9.1996.
1997 diary
Leela the game of knowledge,the 72 squares which make up the field of the cosmic play and the musical scales.
Introduction to philosophy by Russell.PEANO .
Men and movements in American philosophy
The mind of sankaracharya
First principles by spencer
Scence and religion an interpretation of 2 communities (both are 3 fold and circular.
Ananda an experience
A comprehensive anthology of fundamental writings eastern mysticism
She was queen of Egypt
Surely you are joking ,mr Feynman.
On precision of equinox .carl sagan predictions
Freud and dreams ESP Research
Psi processes clairvoyance ,telepathy.
The faith and modern science
Esoteric Christianity
Village gods of south India
Ramayana traditions in asia
Philosophy and scientific cognition,
Esoteric Christianity
The problems of Newton.
1998.travel to Nepal
secret doctrine
dead towns and living men
speeches of lord curzon
theory of evolution
jesus lived in India.(This I read after settling at Ernakulam)
1999
I have compiled all my Krishna poems and collected in a single diary.
Nepal travelogue 6.2 1999.sandranandam
16.5.99 Pragna reiki inauguration at moovattupuzha
ammadevi cult
18.5.99 a dream vision.
Kannan paadalkal
M.P Veerendrakumar and C.K.Sujith kumar award at Nalapatan cultural society speech
Vishnusahasranaamam
Oct 10th Mammiyur devaswom sangheetholsavan arambham
MSS Meera padalkal
72 melakartha and naagakkettu.
I have just enumerated the stream of consciousness in 30 years(1969-1999).How my mind had been concentrated on things which are not mundane for such a long time,so that I cant sometimes understand the ordinary loukika talks.That doesn’t touch me much.Just superficial hearing only.The growth is something like an inward growth ,and then viewing the outside world from within .A figure of 8 pattern of vision.A witness only ,not touched by the external world .In 1999 I realized with wonder that I had been prepared for a realization from childhood through my repetive dream visions ,to do something which even I didn’t know.A sort of astronomical synchronicity.This niyoga is around vridhachala and its memory.
The temple at vridhachala has only 72 karana unlike other temples which have 108 .
Leela (gnan chowpad has )72 cubes
360 degree of brahmanda is 72X 5 or a panchamukha ,pentagon ,the golden proportion of thripurasundari.(panchanan or shiva,simha or vahana of Durga)It is the most perfect aesthetic model of beauty.
72 Melakartha raga I FIRS T CAME ACROSS IN AMMAMAN’S DIARY.
72000 madhunadi,72000 jeevanadi,72 melakartha,all come and superimpose in my mind’s canvas and when I am right in the middle of finding out the place of me in this mandala of 72,yesudas comes into my life .The right person to stimulate the musical 72 melakartha and the music therapy thoughts dormant in my interdisciplinary mind.God’s moves are always in the correct time,correct place,Ibelieve.The recognition of my Vridhachala dream ,not only as a past memory of a bygone life,but also as a predictive dream for my life to evolve into,suddenly dawns in me.After all ,the past and future always merge in present for an advaithic mind.No divisions for time in thrikaalagna mind.So past and future merged in my present as an eternal spacetime and revelations flooded my mind as never before.the diary from 2000 to 2007(now)shows the difference in pattern very well.
The journey has completed a full circle from Ammaman’s death and vision of vridhachala,to series of interdisciplinary studies keeping me away from mundane influences ,and then seeing ammaman’s diary with the term melakartharaaga and the interconnectedness of that number with every other thing I had learned and to music .Then vision and aquaintance and communication with a musical genius and manasaguru(The unexpected happened as if from Heaven a star dropped in front) which gives an intuitive revival of all experiences and integrative summing up,for recognition of my niyoga and role in life,though late.Better late than never!!!Dreams come from heaven.My life story has taught me that.
With this I have given a glimpse of the curios I have collected and kept in the corridors of my personal mental,intellectual timespan and this would help you as my readers to assess what type of a mind/intellect I have and probably what you can expect from my writings too.It is an introduction to the larger corridors of time (impersonal)that we are passing in this sojourn .We are passing from the personal timespace to impersonal timespace and the corridors of that broader span is in direct continuity with my personal narrower biological limited timespace just as the cosmos is related to a paramaanu forever in a nitya relationship.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
From where I started this quest ?
The history of India which I write starts from my history.It is not the history of geneology of dynasties alone, but of a people ,common men and women and their practices and day to day activities ,and a search into these activities which lead to amazing discoveries.
How to start and where to start such a subaltern history?Being a history of the ocean which appears constantly in my dreams I will start from Ambergriss of Ammalu.
What is ambergriss and who is Ammalu?Ammalu was an ancestress of mine,my mother”s grandmother”s first cousin devoted to Krishna and remained unmarried as Krishna’s bride writing poetry on Krishna.My cousin sister Kamaladas has written about her.Ammalu had only two possessions in her wooden box.One was a green bottle probably of a rare perfume (The bottle was empty)and the other was ambergriss.
How did she get ambergriss?Ambergriss is a rare ,very rare and costly item which was traded by the Phoenicians and it is a gelatinlike secretion from the seawhale ,solidified and usually obtained from the poles Near the Baltic sea by deep sea traders. How come Ammalu got such a thing?
My mother told me,we belong to a group of people who lost our way in the deep sea,(before Christ she said)and our ship wrecked ,and three women in the ship were rescued by the then ruler of Malabar .One married the king.The other two ,whether they were sisters or friends of the first one is not known,remained with her ,later to be married to the royal family and the cousins of the king and they were called the Nalpat (Nampat )family and the choolali family .our sheshakkar ,she said.Sheshakkar means ,we have to observe rites when they die or when a childbirth occur in that family(as mentioned in Veda and Upanishad bhashyas).She had this knowledge not from any written sources.It was an oral secret knowledge in the family.And to understand the roots ,our grand uncle Nalapat Narayanamenon had visited choornikkara ,near Alwaye where Nalapat family lived until Tipusultan tried to cross the choorni river.(This Nalpat and Chulali story and the shipwreck is sung in the Thottampaattu of Pulaya community,I later learnt from the book,Cultural history of Kerala by P.K.Gopalakrishnan)5
Ammalu had the old inherited last piece of ambergriss with her.Or may be she got it from one of her ancesters ,all of them wives of successive rulers/or ruling class nobles who were in contact with the traders.
So my history starts from a enquiry into the sea voyage,shipwrecks,export and import items of the sea trade and the habits of the seafaring people of the Indian peninsula.Naturally it becomes the history of the Indian ocean as well and the practices associated with the culture of Indian people as a whole.Someone asked me when I told this story ,Are you people from another continent since it was by shipwreck that you reached Malabar/kerala and because you are all white..Not necessarily.The four maritime regions of Gujarat(kutch and Dwaraka area),Coromandel,Bengal and Malabar had constant contact through searoute ,in the prechristian era, and there is every chance that the ship could have been from Dwaraka region.Ofcourse the other possibility exists just as a speculation only.
The physical geography,geology ,climate ,wind and rainfall of India is very peculiar and Maabaar (Malabar )as it was called by old people was always a bridge between the east and west ,as its Arab name indicates.(Maabar means bridge).There are two monsoons an year which comes with a regular musical rhythmic precision and the people of India were aware of its nature from time immemorial .No other area in the world has got this peculiarity and no other people had the opportunity to study it over prolonged periods of observational experience by generations .The annual reversal of winds and rainfall and the traderoute associated with this peculiar phenomenon has to be understood by a student of Indian history ,before he learns the genealogies of royalties and their warfare.Because most of the wars were fought to gain supremacy over the traderoutes.The predictability of monsoon and the ocean currents and the arrival of Ghanjana birds (kottaran in my native place in and around the river Nila or Bharathapuzha)before the winds blow as the first migratory bird is described by books of Varahamihira.6This was a custom in all coastal belts which portents the monsoon rain,and the arrival of the first ships with it ,the time of rejoicing for people since they have reunion with the sailors ,and also the possibility of getting huge sums for the products they had sent for sale to far off places.
South west monsoon starts from 17 th to 20th May ,at the coasts of Lanka,and goes north to Malabar and the west coast by June ,July and august with great intensity and then by September it weakens and by November it withdraws completely.At that time west coast is inhospitable to ships and people observe chathurmasya and say ,Vishnu is asleep.They do not go out but wait for the ships rounding the Cape of Goodhope and west Asia to come back with the bounty.They reach here by August to End of September and leave before May.The retreat of monsoon and the homecoming of ships gone to west ,the previous year is celebrated by Indians in August ,September,October .It is also the beginning of a trading season and a harvest season after the rains.Monsoon allow rapid transport from Malabar to red sea,the middle east .Within 12 days the ship reaches Muscat and 20 days it can reach Mocha.North east monsoon begin in October with the westerlies gradually turn to north westerlies.In November the north west winds of equatorial belt are called the cross monsoons.I December the winds turn North and north east,easterly.High winds and torrential rains ensue.In October /November cyclones along the Andhra and orissa coasts.By December retreat of monsoon starts and die out by March.Unsteady winds circulate anticyclonically.In October –December the east coast is closed to foreign trade while the home trade continues.There are no natural harbours in east coast .Nearest being Trincomalee for the ships to take shelter.The chola kings knew the route to North and south channels,to Burma,south china sea ,Srilanka and south east asian islands and they are marked in the maps made by their nachodas for many centuries.When SW Monsoon come Malabar ships take shelter in Tuticorin .During NE monsoon coromandel ships took shelter in Madura bay.
The effect of monsoon is from the equator to the tropic of cancer (24 0 north)To the south of Equator the southeast tradewinds throughout the year upto 28 0 S .Further south is the westerlies.The westerlies from Holland to Java ,archipelago islands touch India.The Europeans could understand the monsoon and the searoutes taken by Indians only after studying it closely for 3 centuries(16th to 18th century).Arab accounts show they had gained the knowledge from Indians .Vascoda gama could never have reached the shores of Calicut in 1498 unless piloted by Abdul bin Majid ,a Gujarati Muslim sailor from Mombasa ,a fatal decision for India.
The south pole and the sea around it is in constant activity right from the time the earth was formed,and this activity is in the form of winds which cycles almost all over the globe.The map from geographic review 1942 by A.F Spilhaus (American geographical society1)7shows this activity .If you plot a polyhedral pseudoglobe India has the most strategic position ,and Malabar coast especially occupied a key position in the seatrade route.All histories of India without considering this ,is only an eyewash of successive kings and rulers ,not of the people of India.
Blue squares on left (central,north and south America).Blue square on right is India.. The blue circle represent Africa.And the yellow square Australia.To show the directions of the winds which connect the 5 continents through the south pole and its winds for circumnavigation of the world.The line from Indian subcontinent up is to the Himalayan ranges,Siberia and USSR beyond with the North pole.(on other side)
This is a view (diagrammatic only)from south pole.
The first thing we have to remember in this case is that the people of the southern hemisphere were active seafarers.Second ,to be seafarers what are your basic requirements?Do the Indians satisfy them?
Then the question of Phoenicians come.Who were they?Where these mysterious people in any way related to India?
Is there any resemblance to the vedic seafarers and Phoenicians?can we pinpoint their identity ?How ?
This was a troublesome spot .Yet ,I went on with my quest .The following is what I came
Across.
The fishermen (seafarers ) of India
We have heard so much about the job distribution of India as chathurvarnya.The Brahmins,Kshathriyas and the vaisyas and the shudras.Who were the vaisyas and shudras?Actually what was their role in politics,economy,trade ,administration?
This also is a slippery ground to traverse.The role of kingmakers was in the hands of the vaisya.Kenneth Mcpherson8 takes as examples the nayaks of Ikkeri,Thanjavur,merchants of Madura,Malabar,and Thevar s of Ramnadu.The piracy of malabar merchants,the political .economic mastery because of knowledge of trade routes,cosmopolitan nature and sometimes the name soudagar raja(royal merchant)attached to them is pointed out by him.Then he says they were a diverse group,weavers,Parava(pearldivers and boatmen),smallscale commerce and shopkeepers,shipowners (including big fleets that carried ammunition to escape piracy)were among them.Others who didn’t own ship but had shares in a ship on a cooperative basis,and guilds which had agents as settlers in the worldmarkets ,kings ,princes and members of royal family who took to trade and travel .Malabar royal family was one among such groups.
Out of these expeditions by various groups emerged a specialist in seatravel known as nachoda to Europeans and Perumpidaku mutharayan to sangham age ,and to Kerala(especially cochin,calicut.)Nachoda need not be a trader ,he is a sailor,seasoned and experienced and hence knows the searoutes,markets,stars which show the way at night,monsoon wind and its course etc.A learned individual who can take quick decisions (in modern terms who is having real leadership qualities).In Malbar,Gujrat and coromandel coast such fishermen or Araya were in plenty.We find in sangam literature the father of Kovalan 9as such a respected merchant.The perumpidaku(big ship)muth (pearl)arayan(fishermen from which the term Arya was coined)was a native who had well studied the monsoon,and the sea,and very loyal to king and to the nation.Arthasasthra10 gives qualities of people employed in seatrade.Bharathamuni,Vedavyasa ,kovala,Daasa the father of Satyavathy(wife of santhanu and mother of the kurupandava race), Guha the friend of Rama are some of the famous Araya(Aryas)who had been responsible for the veda codification,codification of music,dance and drama ,for mighty kingdoms,and famous for their loyalty to kings as Guha.Even now,when the southwest monsoon retreats and the onam festival begins,the king of Kochin owners his perumpidaku mutharaya with a rope symbolic of the control of his seatrade and the sea fleets of pirots (as Europeans called)or navy.
Shipping and seafaring require s archeology,anthropology,great movements of people across trade winds,literature and living practices,folklore,practice of shipbuilding ,and astronomy .I have been into these for a long time and what is surprising is that no one has ever thought with all these ,the possibility that the mysterious Phoenicians could be the south Indian Naaga of the prehistoric era.The merchant class ,and traveler class ,mingled with the daasa, fishing folk,kings (kshathriya,and Brahmin(as Vedavyasa)and the isolation as we see in the middle ages could not have been there in such a community.It is not a story of superstition but of economic and political and social stability irrespective of political upheavals and change in kings that India had established through these class,from prehistoric times upto the entry of the Europeans in 15th century.If that is not surprising what else is ?
Inland water transport is an interesting feature in Malabar and in India in general.In no other place in the world are so many navigable rivers located in equidistant parallels (so that the Akshamsa lines are not imaginery but real ,)so that the seatrade can flourish by transport of goods to interior land and offseason transport is always busy.The foreigners were not given a glimpse of the inner quarters of the city,they were restricted to the port cities,that too through middle men..The standard coin of India in the Tamil speaking Malabar coast was the fanam and this gave the name phaneesa,as wellas the origin from the phani or a serpent dynasty .(naaga origin).
The shipbuilding in the coast of Malabar was unique.They cut a grove at the edge of a plank and another plank with appropriare shape is slided into it.They used wooden nails occasionally but never iron nails ,because hey knew it is bad for water,which can rust and reduce the longevity.The Indians knew iron ,Indian Chettys were trading in iron ,but even then they didn’t use it for shipbuilding.The Chinese,the Europeans etc were using nails but the Indians refused to use it and the Europeans actually accepted the Indian method as superior to theirs. .Europens use the word prahu for the sailing ships of east coast of India according toMc Pherson and it is only the Europeans who used that name for the shipos of India,And what I feel is it is a corrupted term for the Pidak u or padaku (big ship)in Tamil language and it was widely used in Malabar,tamil speaking parts of south India even before sangam period.The use of teak for hull was also one reason for longevity of Malabar ships (50-80 yrs)while the oak built uropean ship had a longevity of only 10-12 years.The sheathing (damaged planks replacement periodically in off seasons)increased the longevity and this made the Malabar made ships durable and economical.
Apart from the Nachoda,the ship had a tandel(head of crew)a sarhang for docking (mate)landing supervisors and gunmen .(These people belonged to the vaisya and sudra as well as the Kshthriya classes depending upon the job they specialized.
The long silence after the descriptions of the Arabs and the survival of the knowledge of shipbuilding to date,as well as star science and comparative planetology and mathematics till date among the Indians teach us the method(educational)how knowledge was aquired by long lines of generations through experience and practice,how it was transferred and retained to last for more than 6ooo years without break.
The jobs of fishing,boating,seafaring,river anvigation,constructing appropriate vessels for inland and sea trade,launching vessels,the identification of sea routes and the directions by star and planet ,and the water currents and winds ,calculation of risks involved in a particular journey and the boldness to do so ,all show the historically integral part of a material culture in the maritime zones of India and allthese jobs as well as agriculture was the territory of the vaisya /merchant class.So they played a more important role in the economy,naval defence and decision making on trade and commerce .Probably a higher place than the Teacher ,The Brahmin who remained indoors without going out ,and touching any new culture.And the kings /rulers of India were aware of this.But the real practice was that only the eldest Brahmn had that restriction,while the youngers(Appan as called in Malayalam)were free and learned a lot by constant voyages.In veda Bhujyu makes a voyage for making money.
The Indian ocean world of which India occupied a prominent part had its own sets of human natural rhythms,which dictated every natural activity.Until 15th century AD this was remarkably selfcontained.In 15th century we find China ,which was an active partner in seatrade ,suddenly stops sending its ships .Why?The next stage of crumbling of the hitherto trade relationships were anticipated by them.The moment Vas co Da Gama reached Calicut ,they withdrew from the scene,slowly.And by 18th century the boundaries of the Indian ocean world crumbled overwhelmed economically by the European merchants and soldiers who didn’t respect the subaltern history,because they didn’t understand it properly,and catered to the Lords and petty kings who were quarrelling with each other for territorial and trade supremacy. ,which they thought they will obtain if they are loyal to the foreign colonizers.
The Atlantis and Pacific ocean has a pole to pole orientation ,and touch both south and north poles,while Indian ocean has the landmasses on the north ,great chains of mountains that separate from the climate of central Asia,and this geographic configuration ,the monsoons and the rainfall ,wind and ocean currents ,the rhythm of agricultural and maritime activity adjusted to the rain and winds,gave its supremacy over the maritime trade .There had been a wide arc stretching from S.E.Asia,China,North Australia,Madagaskar,India,coasts of Arabia ,Egypt,south and central America ,and the Mediterranean where the sailors from the Indian ocean world reached regularly ,constantly globalising their ideas,knowledge,trading goods etc.The pheonicians were only part of this great people.Not original inhabitants of the place where they are found .They were acting as the agents and middlemen of the Assyrian emperors and were Indians ,and were the loyal people possibly from the western coasts of India (Malabar/Gujarat) . Brandell 11call sea voyage the longue duree (since long term rhythm of natural and human environment can determine it and sustain it)Random political changes and natural calamities(short term rhythms)cannot hinder it.The long term major rhythms like basic social attitude,food,clothing,architecture,trade using climate ,agriculture etc determine it and these do not change even if a few individuals change in power positions.With these characteristic the Indian ocean world was a self sufficient world and the first global economy of the 18th and 19th century was due to the attraction of this system on the European colonists.East Africa did not have long navigable rivers to facilitate inland trade and sustained supply of the demanded things .Middle east and some ports in Arabia were used but there also the navigable rivers are less except the Nile and the Egypt valley .And inland traffic was by caravans and not by waterways ,and therefore the earliest navigators from the Indian ocean regions were the teachers to Arabia in Maritime trade and not vice versa.But later on,due to internal problems on the main land the supremacy went to the Arabian merchants and jews and in due course to their descendents and converts .the Christians and the muslims.They became the prominent vaisya class.As Mcfarlane12 points out it is not enough to study the component parts of the modern world economy alone to realize and understand its full impact ,but we need to explore the economical and cultural network which existed beyond Europe ,which were later integrated into a global capitalist system.The fact that the Phoenicians had rounded the cape of goodhope and reported the change in direction of the sun when they cross the tropic of Capricorn and the fact that the Greek historians called them fancy tellers is important ,because only when the Europeans in 15th century crossed the cape they knew what the pheonicians told was true and that Herodotus was wrong in mocking at them.It took more than 1600 to 1800 years to rediscover the truth ,for the Greeks /Europeans .while the Phoenicians/Indians knew all along that the Earth is globe and the travel on a sea gives you so many new experiences.The Indian ocean and its history is important for any student who really wants to know not only the history of India but also the history of the whole world.
I came to this study by enquiring the route of Ambergriss in Ammalu’s box.Not by regular classroom study.
At least 9 spheres of activity are mastered before venturing out on to the open sea,and they are
1.Mastery over monsoon and tradewinds
2.over observation of stars and comparative planetology
3.Markets for goods and their numismatics
4.Shipbuilding,maintainance at low economy for longer periods
5.Produce agricultural,cash crops and find out the rare and essential commodities for marketing and establish a regular supply of these in time by loyal network of agents all over the world
6.Inland river transport so that the cargo reaches safely the destination
7.rules ,regulations inter and intrapersonal relationships
8.Arts ,architecture,cultural and custom peculiarities etc for interaction and interest in transfer of knowledge to further the relationships.
9.Standardised weights and measures and formation of guilds
These are the minimum requirements and to have experience and expertise in them a long period is necessary .So ,the maritime and trade activities of Indians require more study than the geneology of the kings and rulers which help in identifying an era only ,not in the cultural characters of the people (the subaltern).
In modern world we know the principles of leadership,innovation and management.(Leadership for Innovation.How to organize team creativity and harvest ideas.John Adair.Kogan page India New Delhi 2007)and that innovation is the key to winning and keeping leadership in world markets.And this calls for team creativity.The commitment to a dual strategy of innovation is the challenge of improving quality ,reliability,and performance of products and services.Indian leaders who organized global trade in 7 th millennium itself had developed this by their honest dealings,weight and measures and the professionalism of finding the demand and supply and communication routes and above all keeping an organized team effort in relation to the wind and seasonal changes of their geographic area.And they had a long term perspective as we find from archeological finds.They had flexibility for innovation and acceptability of risk for such trading as shown right from Bhujyus story in Rg veda.A boss demand respect but a leader commands respect ,is a saying.Indian ancestors commands the respect of anyone who is thoughtful about such facts.The spiritual leaders of India had practical wisdom also and that made them really respectable people is my opinion.It was not just spiritualism of theoretical nature but spiritualism for the wellbeing and prosperity of entire world based on dharma,and satya and ahimsa .They took to arms to protect dharma only.
Many minds,many worlds and many histories theory
In Gargya’s samhitha we find a beautiful description of our multiverses .When Brahma ,the creator visits the Goloka where Radha and Krishna live,he is prevented to enter at the gate by Chandraanana ,a female attendant.When he tells her that he is Brahma,she asks “Brahma of which universe?”
He replies:I thought there is only one universe and I am the Brahma of it.
She said.You have been sitting within your closed universe spacetime like a fly within a fruit.You haven’t come out and seen the many universes and worlds.There are several of them ,like fruits of banyan,amlak,oudumbara,Abrus (of different sizes)and of innumerable numbers.
In Vasishtasamhitha also we find there are several universes about 1000 s of them,revolving like seeds of Abrus precatorius(gunja)without touching or colliding with each other .When Alexander heard that there are several worlds from Anaxarchus he wept.The reason was,he thought it as a matter of lamentation that he has not even conquered one.Several thousands of years after Vasishta and Gargya ,the modern astronomy is finding out that there are multiverses.And that the observers mind is also important in making the universes/multiverses/electronlike move.The theory of many minds by Albert and Lower 1988(The quantum mechanics of minds and worlds .Jeffrey A Barrett .Associate Prof of philosophy at uty of California .Irvine Oxford uty press 1999pp 184) states that every observer(drashta in Indian philosophy),every sentient physical system associated with not a single mind,but rather a series of continuous infinite minds and each evolve independent of his/her other minds.But the minds beliefs aboutits own past mental states are typically reliable.Each of the observers mind represent a different perspective or view of the physical world.But while each mind see a single determinate and consistent series of events ,the global observer ,as a collective mind has many mutually incompatable experiences.Minds are not in superposition.Since they are nonphysical.The time evolution of minds is probabilistic.Probabilities are completely objective,although they do not refer to physical events but always to sequence of states of individual minds.Each mind follow a random trajectory with probabilities given by the mental dynamics.One should eventually expect the memories of almost all of an observers minds,in the norm-sequenced measure ,to exhibit the usual quantum statistics.The many mind theory fits well with relativity.One can read off the global mental state of an observer from universal wave function and the evolution of wave function can be expressed in a covariant form ,so can the global mental dynamics.The transcendental approach(pp 198-199 ibid)is to start by supposing scientific enquiry is possible(In ,sanskrit Asthi and those who start from such assumption are called AAsthika as opposed to naasthika who start from assumption not possible ) .Our beliefs about our and others measurements results are true.If so,whenever he is in an eigenstate of making such report ,then the suggestive properties of the base theory is working and what properties the mental state of the observer must have(In Sanskrit it is called Adhikaara of the observer) and how it must evolve in a mind as they tell us what the observer will report about own experiences(swaanubhava in Sanskrit) and relation of it to others experiences.(Paraanubhava).The transcendental approach according to Barrett fully determines the auxiliary approach(pp 200 ibid).
Destruction of simple interference effects by environmental correlates is decoherence.This explains the determinate experience of the observer.,difficulty to distinguish pure states from mixtures.Process of decoherence states of the brain is the relevant observables of individual neurons ,chemical constituents and electrical potentials.They obey the classical dissipative equations of motion(being physical)Thus any quantum superposition of state of neurons will be destroyed far too quickly for us o become conscious of the quantum goings on .The decoherence applies to our own state of minds.Environment constantly changes.The property selected here,has a determinant that is changing.Therefore the property selectd as determinate also must be changed.Thus as the environment the mind also changes constantly and therefore the observers records,experiences,beliefs also has many histories.
Many histories theory was built upon Everetts many world interpretation.It has three additional crucial ingredients.
1.The notion of set of alternative course-grained histories of a quantum system
2.decoherence of histories in a set
3.Their approximate determinism near the effective classical limit
Gell-Mann and Hartles many histories approach is”In a whole thing ,no fundamental division into observer and observed.Measurements and observers cannot be fundamental notions in a theory that seeks to discuss the universe when neither existed.”
The observer or Drashta and the observed or the drishya(prapancha)are indivisible One .Jeeva and prapancha being one and the measurements of the prapancha are measurements of the observer as well.(the same maana/measures)and when nothing existed as in naasadeeya soothra tells us ,these observers and the observed were not there and hence for the state of pralaya or complete dissolution of worlds,and for Brahma no measurements possible .
All predictions in science are honestly and generally the probabilistic predictions of the true histories of particular events in the universe.The two rules for the many histories theory are
1.sets of alternative histories of universe assigned approximate probabilities
2.What these probabilities are explained in context of Heisenberg picture.
When I write the history of India ,I understand these scientific possibilities well and request my readers also to understand them.The history I write is from a different point of view and it is from my observers mind it comes.So reading my history,you also get a picture of my mind as a part of the entire prapancha /multiverses .
To quote Sankaracharya’s words
Jeevo Brahmaivanaapara.
Jeeva =Prapancha
Brahma=Satya or truth
Prapancha as we see has lot of differences due to relative observation of several minds and hence due its seeming duality is a Maaya.
But Jeeva =Brahma
And Jeeva=Prapancha
Therefore
Brahma=Prapancha
If Brahma is truth Prapancha also has to be truth and the many feeling we get in prapancha is only an illusion /maaya.
We are all one,the entire multiverse with its moving and nonmoving,living and nonliving beings is ONE and that mahaadvaitha is what I want to convey through my history.It is Indian philosophy ,in historical perspective and its intention is the happiness of entire world.Shanthi means peace .Let there be peace on earth .
Om shanthi shanthi shanthi
How to start and where to start such a subaltern history?Being a history of the ocean which appears constantly in my dreams I will start from Ambergriss of Ammalu.
What is ambergriss and who is Ammalu?Ammalu was an ancestress of mine,my mother”s grandmother”s first cousin devoted to Krishna and remained unmarried as Krishna’s bride writing poetry on Krishna.My cousin sister Kamaladas has written about her.Ammalu had only two possessions in her wooden box.One was a green bottle probably of a rare perfume (The bottle was empty)and the other was ambergriss.
How did she get ambergriss?Ambergriss is a rare ,very rare and costly item which was traded by the Phoenicians and it is a gelatinlike secretion from the seawhale ,solidified and usually obtained from the poles Near the Baltic sea by deep sea traders. How come Ammalu got such a thing?
My mother told me,we belong to a group of people who lost our way in the deep sea,(before Christ she said)and our ship wrecked ,and three women in the ship were rescued by the then ruler of Malabar .One married the king.The other two ,whether they were sisters or friends of the first one is not known,remained with her ,later to be married to the royal family and the cousins of the king and they were called the Nalpat (Nampat )family and the choolali family .our sheshakkar ,she said.Sheshakkar means ,we have to observe rites when they die or when a childbirth occur in that family(as mentioned in Veda and Upanishad bhashyas).She had this knowledge not from any written sources.It was an oral secret knowledge in the family.And to understand the roots ,our grand uncle Nalapat Narayanamenon had visited choornikkara ,near Alwaye where Nalapat family lived until Tipusultan tried to cross the choorni river.(This Nalpat and Chulali story and the shipwreck is sung in the Thottampaattu of Pulaya community,I later learnt from the book,Cultural history of Kerala by P.K.Gopalakrishnan)5
Ammalu had the old inherited last piece of ambergriss with her.Or may be she got it from one of her ancesters ,all of them wives of successive rulers/or ruling class nobles who were in contact with the traders.
So my history starts from a enquiry into the sea voyage,shipwrecks,export and import items of the sea trade and the habits of the seafaring people of the Indian peninsula.Naturally it becomes the history of the Indian ocean as well and the practices associated with the culture of Indian people as a whole.Someone asked me when I told this story ,Are you people from another continent since it was by shipwreck that you reached Malabar/kerala and because you are all white..Not necessarily.The four maritime regions of Gujarat(kutch and Dwaraka area),Coromandel,Bengal and Malabar had constant contact through searoute ,in the prechristian era, and there is every chance that the ship could have been from Dwaraka region.Ofcourse the other possibility exists just as a speculation only.
The physical geography,geology ,climate ,wind and rainfall of India is very peculiar and Maabaar (Malabar )as it was called by old people was always a bridge between the east and west ,as its Arab name indicates.(Maabar means bridge).There are two monsoons an year which comes with a regular musical rhythmic precision and the people of India were aware of its nature from time immemorial .No other area in the world has got this peculiarity and no other people had the opportunity to study it over prolonged periods of observational experience by generations .The annual reversal of winds and rainfall and the traderoute associated with this peculiar phenomenon has to be understood by a student of Indian history ,before he learns the genealogies of royalties and their warfare.Because most of the wars were fought to gain supremacy over the traderoutes.The predictability of monsoon and the ocean currents and the arrival of Ghanjana birds (kottaran in my native place in and around the river Nila or Bharathapuzha)before the winds blow as the first migratory bird is described by books of Varahamihira.6This was a custom in all coastal belts which portents the monsoon rain,and the arrival of the first ships with it ,the time of rejoicing for people since they have reunion with the sailors ,and also the possibility of getting huge sums for the products they had sent for sale to far off places.
South west monsoon starts from 17 th to 20th May ,at the coasts of Lanka,and goes north to Malabar and the west coast by June ,July and august with great intensity and then by September it weakens and by November it withdraws completely.At that time west coast is inhospitable to ships and people observe chathurmasya and say ,Vishnu is asleep.They do not go out but wait for the ships rounding the Cape of Goodhope and west Asia to come back with the bounty.They reach here by August to End of September and leave before May.The retreat of monsoon and the homecoming of ships gone to west ,the previous year is celebrated by Indians in August ,September,October .It is also the beginning of a trading season and a harvest season after the rains.Monsoon allow rapid transport from Malabar to red sea,the middle east .Within 12 days the ship reaches Muscat and 20 days it can reach Mocha.North east monsoon begin in October with the westerlies gradually turn to north westerlies.In November the north west winds of equatorial belt are called the cross monsoons.I December the winds turn North and north east,easterly.High winds and torrential rains ensue.In October /November cyclones along the Andhra and orissa coasts.By December retreat of monsoon starts and die out by March.Unsteady winds circulate anticyclonically.In October –December the east coast is closed to foreign trade while the home trade continues.There are no natural harbours in east coast .Nearest being Trincomalee for the ships to take shelter.The chola kings knew the route to North and south channels,to Burma,south china sea ,Srilanka and south east asian islands and they are marked in the maps made by their nachodas for many centuries.When SW Monsoon come Malabar ships take shelter in Tuticorin .During NE monsoon coromandel ships took shelter in Madura bay.
The effect of monsoon is from the equator to the tropic of cancer (24 0 north)To the south of Equator the southeast tradewinds throughout the year upto 28 0 S .Further south is the westerlies.The westerlies from Holland to Java ,archipelago islands touch India.The Europeans could understand the monsoon and the searoutes taken by Indians only after studying it closely for 3 centuries(16th to 18th century).Arab accounts show they had gained the knowledge from Indians .Vascoda gama could never have reached the shores of Calicut in 1498 unless piloted by Abdul bin Majid ,a Gujarati Muslim sailor from Mombasa ,a fatal decision for India.
The south pole and the sea around it is in constant activity right from the time the earth was formed,and this activity is in the form of winds which cycles almost all over the globe.The map from geographic review 1942 by A.F Spilhaus (American geographical society1)7shows this activity .If you plot a polyhedral pseudoglobe India has the most strategic position ,and Malabar coast especially occupied a key position in the seatrade route.All histories of India without considering this ,is only an eyewash of successive kings and rulers ,not of the people of India.
Blue squares on left (central,north and south America).Blue square on right is India.. The blue circle represent Africa.And the yellow square Australia.To show the directions of the winds which connect the 5 continents through the south pole and its winds for circumnavigation of the world.The line from Indian subcontinent up is to the Himalayan ranges,Siberia and USSR beyond with the North pole.(on other side)
This is a view (diagrammatic only)from south pole.
The first thing we have to remember in this case is that the people of the southern hemisphere were active seafarers.Second ,to be seafarers what are your basic requirements?Do the Indians satisfy them?
Then the question of Phoenicians come.Who were they?Where these mysterious people in any way related to India?
Is there any resemblance to the vedic seafarers and Phoenicians?can we pinpoint their identity ?How ?
This was a troublesome spot .Yet ,I went on with my quest .The following is what I came
Across.
The fishermen (seafarers ) of India
We have heard so much about the job distribution of India as chathurvarnya.The Brahmins,Kshathriyas and the vaisyas and the shudras.Who were the vaisyas and shudras?Actually what was their role in politics,economy,trade ,administration?
This also is a slippery ground to traverse.The role of kingmakers was in the hands of the vaisya.Kenneth Mcpherson8 takes as examples the nayaks of Ikkeri,Thanjavur,merchants of Madura,Malabar,and Thevar s of Ramnadu.The piracy of malabar merchants,the political .economic mastery because of knowledge of trade routes,cosmopolitan nature and sometimes the name soudagar raja(royal merchant)attached to them is pointed out by him.Then he says they were a diverse group,weavers,Parava(pearldivers and boatmen),smallscale commerce and shopkeepers,shipowners (including big fleets that carried ammunition to escape piracy)were among them.Others who didn’t own ship but had shares in a ship on a cooperative basis,and guilds which had agents as settlers in the worldmarkets ,kings ,princes and members of royal family who took to trade and travel .Malabar royal family was one among such groups.
Out of these expeditions by various groups emerged a specialist in seatravel known as nachoda to Europeans and Perumpidaku mutharayan to sangham age ,and to Kerala(especially cochin,calicut.)Nachoda need not be a trader ,he is a sailor,seasoned and experienced and hence knows the searoutes,markets,stars which show the way at night,monsoon wind and its course etc.A learned individual who can take quick decisions (in modern terms who is having real leadership qualities).In Malbar,Gujrat and coromandel coast such fishermen or Araya were in plenty.We find in sangam literature the father of Kovalan 9as such a respected merchant.The perumpidaku(big ship)muth (pearl)arayan(fishermen from which the term Arya was coined)was a native who had well studied the monsoon,and the sea,and very loyal to king and to the nation.Arthasasthra10 gives qualities of people employed in seatrade.Bharathamuni,Vedavyasa ,kovala,Daasa the father of Satyavathy(wife of santhanu and mother of the kurupandava race), Guha the friend of Rama are some of the famous Araya(Aryas)who had been responsible for the veda codification,codification of music,dance and drama ,for mighty kingdoms,and famous for their loyalty to kings as Guha.Even now,when the southwest monsoon retreats and the onam festival begins,the king of Kochin owners his perumpidaku mutharaya with a rope symbolic of the control of his seatrade and the sea fleets of pirots (as Europeans called)or navy.
Shipping and seafaring require s archeology,anthropology,great movements of people across trade winds,literature and living practices,folklore,practice of shipbuilding ,and astronomy .I have been into these for a long time and what is surprising is that no one has ever thought with all these ,the possibility that the mysterious Phoenicians could be the south Indian Naaga of the prehistoric era.The merchant class ,and traveler class ,mingled with the daasa, fishing folk,kings (kshathriya,and Brahmin(as Vedavyasa)and the isolation as we see in the middle ages could not have been there in such a community.It is not a story of superstition but of economic and political and social stability irrespective of political upheavals and change in kings that India had established through these class,from prehistoric times upto the entry of the Europeans in 15th century.If that is not surprising what else is ?
Inland water transport is an interesting feature in Malabar and in India in general.In no other place in the world are so many navigable rivers located in equidistant parallels (so that the Akshamsa lines are not imaginery but real ,)so that the seatrade can flourish by transport of goods to interior land and offseason transport is always busy.The foreigners were not given a glimpse of the inner quarters of the city,they were restricted to the port cities,that too through middle men..The standard coin of India in the Tamil speaking Malabar coast was the fanam and this gave the name phaneesa,as wellas the origin from the phani or a serpent dynasty .(naaga origin).
The shipbuilding in the coast of Malabar was unique.They cut a grove at the edge of a plank and another plank with appropriare shape is slided into it.They used wooden nails occasionally but never iron nails ,because hey knew it is bad for water,which can rust and reduce the longevity.The Indians knew iron ,Indian Chettys were trading in iron ,but even then they didn’t use it for shipbuilding.The Chinese,the Europeans etc were using nails but the Indians refused to use it and the Europeans actually accepted the Indian method as superior to theirs. .Europens use the word prahu for the sailing ships of east coast of India according toMc Pherson and it is only the Europeans who used that name for the shipos of India,And what I feel is it is a corrupted term for the Pidak u or padaku (big ship)in Tamil language and it was widely used in Malabar,tamil speaking parts of south India even before sangam period.The use of teak for hull was also one reason for longevity of Malabar ships (50-80 yrs)while the oak built uropean ship had a longevity of only 10-12 years.The sheathing (damaged planks replacement periodically in off seasons)increased the longevity and this made the Malabar made ships durable and economical.
Apart from the Nachoda,the ship had a tandel(head of crew)a sarhang for docking (mate)landing supervisors and gunmen .(These people belonged to the vaisya and sudra as well as the Kshthriya classes depending upon the job they specialized.
The long silence after the descriptions of the Arabs and the survival of the knowledge of shipbuilding to date,as well as star science and comparative planetology and mathematics till date among the Indians teach us the method(educational)how knowledge was aquired by long lines of generations through experience and practice,how it was transferred and retained to last for more than 6ooo years without break.
The jobs of fishing,boating,seafaring,river anvigation,constructing appropriate vessels for inland and sea trade,launching vessels,the identification of sea routes and the directions by star and planet ,and the water currents and winds ,calculation of risks involved in a particular journey and the boldness to do so ,all show the historically integral part of a material culture in the maritime zones of India and allthese jobs as well as agriculture was the territory of the vaisya /merchant class.So they played a more important role in the economy,naval defence and decision making on trade and commerce .Probably a higher place than the Teacher ,The Brahmin who remained indoors without going out ,and touching any new culture.And the kings /rulers of India were aware of this.But the real practice was that only the eldest Brahmn had that restriction,while the youngers(Appan as called in Malayalam)were free and learned a lot by constant voyages.In veda Bhujyu makes a voyage for making money.
The Indian ocean world of which India occupied a prominent part had its own sets of human natural rhythms,which dictated every natural activity.Until 15th century AD this was remarkably selfcontained.In 15th century we find China ,which was an active partner in seatrade ,suddenly stops sending its ships .Why?The next stage of crumbling of the hitherto trade relationships were anticipated by them.The moment Vas co Da Gama reached Calicut ,they withdrew from the scene,slowly.And by 18th century the boundaries of the Indian ocean world crumbled overwhelmed economically by the European merchants and soldiers who didn’t respect the subaltern history,because they didn’t understand it properly,and catered to the Lords and petty kings who were quarrelling with each other for territorial and trade supremacy. ,which they thought they will obtain if they are loyal to the foreign colonizers.
The Atlantis and Pacific ocean has a pole to pole orientation ,and touch both south and north poles,while Indian ocean has the landmasses on the north ,great chains of mountains that separate from the climate of central Asia,and this geographic configuration ,the monsoons and the rainfall ,wind and ocean currents ,the rhythm of agricultural and maritime activity adjusted to the rain and winds,gave its supremacy over the maritime trade .There had been a wide arc stretching from S.E.Asia,China,North Australia,Madagaskar,India,coasts of Arabia ,Egypt,south and central America ,and the Mediterranean where the sailors from the Indian ocean world reached regularly ,constantly globalising their ideas,knowledge,trading goods etc.The pheonicians were only part of this great people.Not original inhabitants of the place where they are found .They were acting as the agents and middlemen of the Assyrian emperors and were Indians ,and were the loyal people possibly from the western coasts of India (Malabar/Gujarat) . Brandell 11call sea voyage the longue duree (since long term rhythm of natural and human environment can determine it and sustain it)Random political changes and natural calamities(short term rhythms)cannot hinder it.The long term major rhythms like basic social attitude,food,clothing,architecture,trade using climate ,agriculture etc determine it and these do not change even if a few individuals change in power positions.With these characteristic the Indian ocean world was a self sufficient world and the first global economy of the 18th and 19th century was due to the attraction of this system on the European colonists.East Africa did not have long navigable rivers to facilitate inland trade and sustained supply of the demanded things .Middle east and some ports in Arabia were used but there also the navigable rivers are less except the Nile and the Egypt valley .And inland traffic was by caravans and not by waterways ,and therefore the earliest navigators from the Indian ocean regions were the teachers to Arabia in Maritime trade and not vice versa.But later on,due to internal problems on the main land the supremacy went to the Arabian merchants and jews and in due course to their descendents and converts .the Christians and the muslims.They became the prominent vaisya class.As Mcfarlane12 points out it is not enough to study the component parts of the modern world economy alone to realize and understand its full impact ,but we need to explore the economical and cultural network which existed beyond Europe ,which were later integrated into a global capitalist system.The fact that the Phoenicians had rounded the cape of goodhope and reported the change in direction of the sun when they cross the tropic of Capricorn and the fact that the Greek historians called them fancy tellers is important ,because only when the Europeans in 15th century crossed the cape they knew what the pheonicians told was true and that Herodotus was wrong in mocking at them.It took more than 1600 to 1800 years to rediscover the truth ,for the Greeks /Europeans .while the Phoenicians/Indians knew all along that the Earth is globe and the travel on a sea gives you so many new experiences.The Indian ocean and its history is important for any student who really wants to know not only the history of India but also the history of the whole world.
I came to this study by enquiring the route of Ambergriss in Ammalu’s box.Not by regular classroom study.
At least 9 spheres of activity are mastered before venturing out on to the open sea,and they are
1.Mastery over monsoon and tradewinds
2.over observation of stars and comparative planetology
3.Markets for goods and their numismatics
4.Shipbuilding,maintainance at low economy for longer periods
5.Produce agricultural,cash crops and find out the rare and essential commodities for marketing and establish a regular supply of these in time by loyal network of agents all over the world
6.Inland river transport so that the cargo reaches safely the destination
7.rules ,regulations inter and intrapersonal relationships
8.Arts ,architecture,cultural and custom peculiarities etc for interaction and interest in transfer of knowledge to further the relationships.
9.Standardised weights and measures and formation of guilds
These are the minimum requirements and to have experience and expertise in them a long period is necessary .So ,the maritime and trade activities of Indians require more study than the geneology of the kings and rulers which help in identifying an era only ,not in the cultural characters of the people (the subaltern).
In modern world we know the principles of leadership,innovation and management.(Leadership for Innovation.How to organize team creativity and harvest ideas.John Adair.Kogan page India New Delhi 2007)and that innovation is the key to winning and keeping leadership in world markets.And this calls for team creativity.The commitment to a dual strategy of innovation is the challenge of improving quality ,reliability,and performance of products and services.Indian leaders who organized global trade in 7 th millennium itself had developed this by their honest dealings,weight and measures and the professionalism of finding the demand and supply and communication routes and above all keeping an organized team effort in relation to the wind and seasonal changes of their geographic area.And they had a long term perspective as we find from archeological finds.They had flexibility for innovation and acceptability of risk for such trading as shown right from Bhujyus story in Rg veda.A boss demand respect but a leader commands respect ,is a saying.Indian ancestors commands the respect of anyone who is thoughtful about such facts.The spiritual leaders of India had practical wisdom also and that made them really respectable people is my opinion.It was not just spiritualism of theoretical nature but spiritualism for the wellbeing and prosperity of entire world based on dharma,and satya and ahimsa .They took to arms to protect dharma only.
Many minds,many worlds and many histories theory
In Gargya’s samhitha we find a beautiful description of our multiverses .When Brahma ,the creator visits the Goloka where Radha and Krishna live,he is prevented to enter at the gate by Chandraanana ,a female attendant.When he tells her that he is Brahma,she asks “Brahma of which universe?”
He replies:I thought there is only one universe and I am the Brahma of it.
She said.You have been sitting within your closed universe spacetime like a fly within a fruit.You haven’t come out and seen the many universes and worlds.There are several of them ,like fruits of banyan,amlak,oudumbara,Abrus (of different sizes)and of innumerable numbers.
In Vasishtasamhitha also we find there are several universes about 1000 s of them,revolving like seeds of Abrus precatorius(gunja)without touching or colliding with each other .When Alexander heard that there are several worlds from Anaxarchus he wept.The reason was,he thought it as a matter of lamentation that he has not even conquered one.Several thousands of years after Vasishta and Gargya ,the modern astronomy is finding out that there are multiverses.And that the observers mind is also important in making the universes/multiverses/electronlike move.The theory of many minds by Albert and Lower 1988(The quantum mechanics of minds and worlds .Jeffrey A Barrett .Associate Prof of philosophy at uty of California .Irvine Oxford uty press 1999pp 184) states that every observer(drashta in Indian philosophy),every sentient physical system associated with not a single mind,but rather a series of continuous infinite minds and each evolve independent of his/her other minds.But the minds beliefs aboutits own past mental states are typically reliable.Each of the observers mind represent a different perspective or view of the physical world.But while each mind see a single determinate and consistent series of events ,the global observer ,as a collective mind has many mutually incompatable experiences.Minds are not in superposition.Since they are nonphysical.The time evolution of minds is probabilistic.Probabilities are completely objective,although they do not refer to physical events but always to sequence of states of individual minds.Each mind follow a random trajectory with probabilities given by the mental dynamics.One should eventually expect the memories of almost all of an observers minds,in the norm-sequenced measure ,to exhibit the usual quantum statistics.The many mind theory fits well with relativity.One can read off the global mental state of an observer from universal wave function and the evolution of wave function can be expressed in a covariant form ,so can the global mental dynamics.The transcendental approach(pp 198-199 ibid)is to start by supposing scientific enquiry is possible(In ,sanskrit Asthi and those who start from such assumption are called AAsthika as opposed to naasthika who start from assumption not possible ) .Our beliefs about our and others measurements results are true.If so,whenever he is in an eigenstate of making such report ,then the suggestive properties of the base theory is working and what properties the mental state of the observer must have(In Sanskrit it is called Adhikaara of the observer) and how it must evolve in a mind as they tell us what the observer will report about own experiences(swaanubhava in Sanskrit) and relation of it to others experiences.(Paraanubhava).The transcendental approach according to Barrett fully determines the auxiliary approach(pp 200 ibid).
Destruction of simple interference effects by environmental correlates is decoherence.This explains the determinate experience of the observer.,difficulty to distinguish pure states from mixtures.Process of decoherence states of the brain is the relevant observables of individual neurons ,chemical constituents and electrical potentials.They obey the classical dissipative equations of motion(being physical)Thus any quantum superposition of state of neurons will be destroyed far too quickly for us o become conscious of the quantum goings on .The decoherence applies to our own state of minds.Environment constantly changes.The property selected here,has a determinant that is changing.Therefore the property selectd as determinate also must be changed.Thus as the environment the mind also changes constantly and therefore the observers records,experiences,beliefs also has many histories.
Many histories theory was built upon Everetts many world interpretation.It has three additional crucial ingredients.
1.The notion of set of alternative course-grained histories of a quantum system
2.decoherence of histories in a set
3.Their approximate determinism near the effective classical limit
Gell-Mann and Hartles many histories approach is”In a whole thing ,no fundamental division into observer and observed.Measurements and observers cannot be fundamental notions in a theory that seeks to discuss the universe when neither existed.”
The observer or Drashta and the observed or the drishya(prapancha)are indivisible One .Jeeva and prapancha being one and the measurements of the prapancha are measurements of the observer as well.(the same maana/measures)and when nothing existed as in naasadeeya soothra tells us ,these observers and the observed were not there and hence for the state of pralaya or complete dissolution of worlds,and for Brahma no measurements possible .
All predictions in science are honestly and generally the probabilistic predictions of the true histories of particular events in the universe.The two rules for the many histories theory are
1.sets of alternative histories of universe assigned approximate probabilities
2.What these probabilities are explained in context of Heisenberg picture.
When I write the history of India ,I understand these scientific possibilities well and request my readers also to understand them.The history I write is from a different point of view and it is from my observers mind it comes.So reading my history,you also get a picture of my mind as a part of the entire prapancha /multiverses .
To quote Sankaracharya’s words
Jeevo Brahmaivanaapara.
Jeeva =Prapancha
Brahma=Satya or truth
Prapancha as we see has lot of differences due to relative observation of several minds and hence due its seeming duality is a Maaya.
But Jeeva =Brahma
And Jeeva=Prapancha
Therefore
Brahma=Prapancha
If Brahma is truth Prapancha also has to be truth and the many feeling we get in prapancha is only an illusion /maaya.
We are all one,the entire multiverse with its moving and nonmoving,living and nonliving beings is ONE and that mahaadvaitha is what I want to convey through my history.It is Indian philosophy ,in historical perspective and its intention is the happiness of entire world.Shanthi means peace .Let there be peace on earth .
Om shanthi shanthi shanthi
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